The video I obsessed over is finally finished. It became my obsession in place of daydreaming for awhile, but it's done. These characters are who I want to be. Or maybe a famous, lucrative video editor is what I want to be. I can't tell. But either way, it makes me feel things that I want to replicate in real life.

Also, not sure that video will work embedded, …

I am on there fairly often. I don't post about MD much, but sometimes I do. If you want to follow me anyway though, it's http://illtakethestairs.tumblr.com Don't feel obligated to follow if you don't like it. Just thought I'd throw it out there, for anyone who gets on Tumblr a lot. :)

I'm slipping. I'm losing touch with reality. And it all started with an innocent video.

I think everyone's daydreams play out like movie scenes. Often times for me, I do something similar with music and create a music video, both in my head and while I'm acting it out. Sometimes, this leads to me making actual videos of me dancing or doing whatever. The most recent urge to do this started on Thursday when I filmed some scenes of me doing my version of a particular song.

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I've been physically exhausted since 8pm. But it's 2AM now, and I'm still awake. Thankfully, I've been somewhat productive during this random bout of mental energy. Well, I wouldn't call it that. Perhaps just mental unrest. That unsettled feeling that won't allow you to sleep. 

I haven't daydreamed today. But that's possibly irrelevant. I'm distracted by my desperation in my current job search. But I'd rather be evicted from my apartment than go back to the job I was just at.…