I can't handle my daydreaming anymore, I'm fighting to focus and its so difficult. I have become an expert at staring at something and looking like I'm paying attention, all teachers think I'm super attentive but I'm looking at them but I can't hear or really see them because I'm daydreaming, I've spaced out. I was watching a movie for school that was only about 8 minutes long and I had to repeat one bit several times because I kept on missing it because of daydreaming. It's so frustrating…

Frustration, it is the perfect word to describe what my life is like right now :(.

1. My mom doesn't give a shit about anything. Its getting ridiculous, I hate to say this but her priorities are messed up. I never thought I could say this about an adult or my mom. Subject choices have come up and all the other parents are sitting down with their kids talking about what they want to do, I told her and she doesn't give a crap. I filled out my choices form alone, my dads never here so I…

My thoughts and daydreams are driving me crazy. Honestly I'm surprised no one sees it but if they did I would have been put in a mental institute long ago. I replay real life events from years ago that I felt bad or disliked in my head over and over again. And its like a form of torture but I just can't stop. Every time it happens I cringe, I just wish there was a way to escape.. from myself. I hate my daydreams simply because I know its never going to be like that. I feel like I used to…