The words of this song hit a cord with me.

The Slot

Mirrors

Roam,

In this faded dream,

Can you hear me when I scream?

To you... ,

Have they been in vain?

I am still the same,

All my fear endured my pain,

Explain what remains,



Staring back,

Empty mirrors only fill my eyes,

Nothing's left to recognise,

So I tell myself that I'm alive,

I still hear you,



Tock tick tock,



Time has frozen here,…

I watched a show where someone did just that. It was a show called "paul merton in europe" He visited a man who moved from NY to Ireland. He said that he had seen movies and old photos of the twenties and felt he had been cheated out of a good life. So he decided to create that life. His house was decorated in the twenties style, no modern kitchen. Every thing as it would be in the twenties. He dressed in that style, making or altering clothes to fit that era. It…

Scared to even post this. I'm very confused by what is happening. Tuesday around 9:30 or 10 am the current DD ended. I try to stave off the new one starting as long as I can. It is usually a very stressful time, like quickly changing channels in my mind. Before one will stick and start a story. Well as I tried to keep distracting myself at work, my mind got a little clearer. I was almost holding my breath all day waiting for it to kick in again.

Well here it is Wednesday night and my…

http://www.blogtalkradio.com/daydreaming/2013/01/12/maladaptive-daydreaming

I found this video and can relate to what this girl is saying. Especially the part about it killing her from the inside and taking over her reality. I think she was very brave for putting this out there.

http://youtu.be/ZjUEZZZKOL0

ok, I've only made 2 entries but I don't feel any better. I read a FB post about MD being a gift. That just brought up some many terrible feelings. A place I had gone to for support, telling me it isn't a problem. There's nothing wrong with you, this is great. Why doesn't it feel great? I did the entry in the CBT diary and got all the postive statments to tell myself. Isn't helping. I felt hopeless, I just wanted to........well. I am sitting at my desk at work, crying, I can't stop. My…

A therapist in your pocket! New mobile apps let you try DIY therapy. May sound like a bad idea, I mean of course finding a good therapist you can open up to would be the best. But if you are in a remote area, or financially unable to aford therapy, then this may be a good option.

There are many CBT (cognative based therapy) apps out there, some for a fee and some free. I decided to try one, I downloaded CBT diary for free. I don't know how much help it will be for my MD but maybe at…