Oh imagination, imagination

You have been there so much for me

You make me forget reality

You make me feel at peace

You make me think I am well

Soon before I know, u took over

I see myself slipping away

I see my shadow sitting going no where

I see what I could become, but not be

I thought I hated you

For once I did

I hated you so much

I wanted to eradicate you

Gosh, how I…

How many times did I stop myself? How many times did I tell myself this isn’t real? Again and again I tell myself this isn’t real—all in your head.Parting with my imagination was like an addiction. I didn’t want to come out, but I know I couldn’t stay here.

I know they weren’t all real, but I wanted to live the illusion. I feel a dull fake euphoria in this imagination and every time I know it was all faked. It was so easy and so safe—yet so lonely. And so that is why I…

Lost in the maze of my own mind

I couldn’t grasp that all wasn’t real

It was so sweet that I didn’t want to leave

I didn’t want the truth to surface

I want to drown

Drown in this false reality of mine

The shadows dance to my story

I chased the shadows

From walls to walls in the maze

All was sweet, so sweet

I didn’t want to leave

I reached for the shadows

only to find the solid walls

Cold…

Some night I’ll be in bed daydreaming. I thought of her pain. I thought of her endurances, her strengths, and her past. I couldn’t quite imagine her future though. The bed was the prefect spot to imagine being love, to imagine his embrace. I imagined fitting into the fold of his arms. I breathe in air and I imagined everything clearing away. I imagined peace in his arms. Then, I remembered I have to go to sleep. I looked into the ceiling and made it known to myself---he will never exist in…