It's been on my mind a lot lately how often I get sucked into the daydreaming even when I don't want to. It feels like it's really happening even though it's all fake. It's all fake! It's not real! These characters, the events that happen, it's all nonsense, yet I have visceral reactions to it all and I give it more attention than my real life. There's so much in my life I neglect because I'm spending all my spare time in my head. I want to get better at leaving imagination behind and…

I've had MD for more than 20 years. For most of my life, my daydreams have been pleasant and enjoyable, but in the last few years, things have changed drastically. Most of my daydreams now are really scary and unsettling, almost like catastrophic thoughts in the form of a movie in my head. Any time I watch a new show or see something on social media, my brain will twist it into something awful. Someone is abusing me, embarrassing me, torturing me, abandoning me, etc. It's always something…