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Journey to a Life Free of Maladaptive Daydreaming

Day 1 - I've been Maladaptive Daydreaming for over four years now, and I know that it's time to stop. I've recently been able to improve my life, but am facing some obstacles right now and want to clear my mind and focus on improvement. Today I spent a huge amount of time in depression and daydreaming, trying to escape my current circumstances and overlooking all the blessings in my life. I truly believe that all our lives have so much value, value beyond our imagination, and that we should try our hardest to recognize that value. So right now, I will take small steps, starting off by forgiving myself for all the mistakes I have made, and calmly take on whatever I need to do.

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Day 16 - While my MD was high at first near the beginning of the day, it definitely weaned down as the day progressed. There were many times when I had to physically (almost out loud) tell myself to stop my current flow of daydream thoughts, and step back for a bit to become more aware of what's going on around me. Each time I catch myself MD duirng the moment of an MD episode, I feel like I'm helping myself break the habit of MDing on autopilot, and am slowly rewiring my brain to ground myself more in reality.
Day 17 - I'm not going to lie, today has been really difficult to control my MD. I woke up late and tired, and then later when talking with a few people, I felt strongly that I wasn't able to communicate the way I wanted to, as if there was a giant block that was preventing me from expressing myself fully. As a result, my MD popped up in a really strong form, prompting me to imagine myself explaining to others made up scenarios where I had difficult situations going on in my life, situations which explained my quietness and aloofness in real life.

I did catch myself during a couple of these episodes, and was able to bring myself out of those MD's. In my mind, there is a strong underlying sense of dissatisfaction with my situations, along with a confusion for how to proceed forward (mainly due to worries about the future and a lack of clear direction).

I think an important step in the process of recovery from MD is acceptance. Life is not always going to be easy and ideal the way we want it to be, and that's completely okay. Don't feel too ashamed of where you're at right now, and please don't think there's something wrong with you because of where you are. You're doing amazing, and where you are currently does not have to define or limit the possibilities for your life. I have faith in you, I know things will get better, and I know you can start enjoying each day moving forward for bits at a time.
Day 18 - Today I would say my MD's were fairly moderate, and I often was able to identify them and eventually take steps to step back from them. I really think the main challenge is trying to figure out what to do when I step back from daydreaming--what thoughts or actions should I engage myself with the extra space in my mind?
Day 20 - I was able to catch quite a number of MD episodes today, and felt like it was not overly difficult to step back from them. I still have the lingering question of what should I be doing with my mind when I'm not engaged in MD.

One possible thought is having a to-do list handy, so I can maybe spend extra metal space planning towards accomplishing certain goals?
Day 21 - I've been thinking about some high level life questions today, and have been fairly low in terms of MD frequency. I'll see how things go, and update tomorrow.
Day 22 - MD was near an all time low (as compared to the last few months) this morning. Near the afternoon and evening, MD definitely picked up to frequencies approaching normal levels. However, I'll see how tomorrow goes.
Day 23 - Today was a fun day in general. I had fairly strong MD around morning, but the MD frequency definitely decreased over the course of the day as I engaged myself in more activities.
Day 24 - MD definitely does pop up during times when I feel I have extra free time, or especially when I don't have things planned out to do. I felt fairly tired during much of the earlier portion of the day, but noticed that this tiredness quickly disappeared once I did a few minutes of brief exercise. Even now, I find that MD constantly comes and goes, but doesn't have the same grip over me as it has in the morning.
Day 25 - Real life has been pretty fun and fairly rewarding, but I've noticed that MD is still very much present. I know it's something that's not going to go away immediately, but with time and concentrated, conscious rewiring, should decrease in frequency and intensity.

Today I choose to step back from MD by focusing on what I'm grateful for in my real life.
Day 27 - Yesterday real life hit hard, and I did experience a bout of depression that was difficult to climb out of. However, after allowing some time, perspective, and a period to learn about my mind, things got better.

Surprisingly, after a positive event, my mind went into a thick session of MD. I'll continue to watch my mind and see what happens.

Today, I choose to step back from MD by focusing on something I want to make happen in my real life, and working on making it happen
Day 32 - The last few days have been quite intense and very eventful. Also, during the course of these days, I've allowed myself to reflect on some unresolved issues in my life which I haven't fully allowed myself to address.

It's been difficult trying to process it all, but with time it's been getting easier. What really helps is reminding myself to not take on all my worries at once, and focus on feeling a sense of calm and peace.

Today I choose to step back from MD by completing small but necessary tasks in real life.
Day 33 - Today my MD was fairly under control for the majority of the day.

During the evening, I did an activity that brought me stress. I decided to listen to music for a bit while working on the activity, and that brought me into a series of daydreams.

The next time I feel a similar feeling of stress, I plan to watch a video on dealing with stress, and postpone MD as a later option.

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