Introduction (hello) and celebrity MDs

[Jane]

Hello, am new here although been signed up a while. Never thought I'd find other people who do what I do, really thought I was alone. Amazing!

I've been MDing for as long as I can remember, at least the last 20+ years. I've always been someone with low self esteem and certainly as a child very shy and over time I guess this developed into depression/anxiety which in turn manifested intself into some digestive issues which in turn fueled the social anxiety further.

This is where the MD became my escape and happy place (although I never realised I did it until some years later).

Anyway, long story short, I daydream constantly, usually a specific daydream will last anything from a few months to a few years, but more often it's a few years.

They almost exclusively include as a central character a celebrity or sportstar. The "me" in these DDs is everything I'm not in real life, she doesn't look, act, talk, dress, anything like me although I am her in my head and act out my life through her in my head. If that makes sense?

 I create a whole history for her and she of course always ends up with whomever is my current celebrity crush. There are many subplots within my DD and tangents and other mini DD within the main DD. And I jump about and relive over and over again certain parts of my DD.

My real life is nothing without my DDs, I have no life and although I hate doing it I can't and don't really want to stop because the only fulfilment I get is when I'm away in my fantasy. I do it all the time, even when around other people, my DD characters are always with me. When I'm on my own I talk out loud to them as if I'm "her".

(I'm not delusional btw, I do know their not really there.lol)

The celebrity part of it is a real issue though because when I become aware of some new aspect of my celebs  real life it can feel devastating (ie girlfriend, babies etc) and it sends me into a downward spiral.

I try very hard not to look at things online about them, but am not always successful, the internet is such a bad thing sometimes. lol.

I also research everything I can about where that celeb comes from (current one is not even from the same culture/country as me so I religously try and find out as much as I can to make my DD as realistic as possible...even researching house prices for the place he lives.)

Just wondered if anyone else experiences the same thing with celebrities and their fantasy worlds?

Anyway, well done if you read this far and thanks for reading. I really think MD has ruined my life even though I can't live without it.

[Rae]

I experience the same thing with celebrities. When I find out things about them on the internet that have changed I become irritated, sort of annoyed and sad. I do an extensive amount of research for my daydreaming as well. After finding out information I am not happy out it takes me a fair amount of time to re-convince myself that these are my daydreams and anything can happen in them, it doesn't matter what is happening in the real world.

I used to hate my MD but somehow I have learned to accept it for what it is and that made me enjoy it so much more and made me feel so much better about it.

[Jane]

Hi

Glad it's not just me. I struggle really hard when I find out something I'd rather not know about my celeb and find I can't control my DD the way I'd like as it's like the real world collides with my fantasy world and it's difficult to deal with.

I think it's why I have a whole life history for the "me" in my DD, so I can jump to a place back in her timeline before she meets the celeb and I can try and get a control over it again.

Have no idea if that makes sense. I wish my MD could just be fictional with no characters based on reality at all. But I guess I like the realism of it as it's the way I live my life through my DDs.

[Iris]

Hello Jane,

I'm a long-time daydreamer like you (now almost 40 years). My daydream charakters are no celebs or other real people, they are totally fantasy. You said that the "me" in your DDs is everything you're not in real life. For me this is exactly the same - they are successful, can solve problems - and they are male. I think I wanted them to be the opposite of me.

I know, it is hard to live with daydreams, but don't give up your life. Always try to do something you like in real life. Try to have and meet friends, don't get isolated in your head. Real life is unpredictable and it can be depressing but it is reality. I live a quite normal life with a job, family and pets. Daydreaming is hindering me in many ways, but I'm trying that it doesn't take over my life. - All the best to you!

 

 

[Jane]

Thanks for your words of encouragement Iris.

[ashlee]

I use celebrities, but I change their personalities. Like michelle said, I kinda cast them as characters.
in elementary school I kind of did what you did, though. I had made this perfect character who was a couple years older than me,she was an actress and had a show on disney channel. She hung out with like jonas brothers, miley cyrus, basically all the teens that were popular in 2006/7/8.....so embarassing LOL.  She even dated/married this one dude from hannah montana. oh god. I'd read about the celebrities on stupid teen gossip sites all the time, to see what they were like outside their fake-christian-gooody-two-shoes-perfect-disney life.  So i guess it was cool...Id imagine what these celebrities lives were like outside of what disney wants us to think. 

Looking back on that, Its so weird how I pictured all those celebrities lives turning out like. I pictured by their 20s mileys career fading out, nick jonas being a successful solo musician, cody linley marrying my character LOL, Demi lovato focusing on producing, and selena gomez being a beoming a really successful actress...........all of my predictions were wrong. (Demi lovato did go to rehab in my daydream though! before she actually did.)



my new daydream i like to base their looks off a celeb or person i saw (maybe tweak a few things)  and create my own  personalities for them,  just incase I wanna write it out one day and i become famous LOL (big dream)

[Amanda Lewone]

I did this too. The whole celebrity thing. 

Right now I want to improve my self esteem issues. 

[xf079]

Funny, I do the same thing! :)

Michelle Young said:

With me, I kind of "Cast" certain celebs in the roles of my characters. So my characters are fictional, but if I can find a celeb who looks like one of my characters, then watching one of his/her shows or movies just helps me visualize my story better. What the actor does in the real world has no effect whatsoever on my story line. 

[roxanne]

I wish I could be more detached from real-life celebritites.  Some of my crushes from fiction just look like a specific celebrity and that is easier, but never as intense as the real-life ones.  However, the down side of this is having to deal with their real girl friends or anything else about them you might not like.  The real-life ones though - for me - have always been the hardest to give up.  There is a group, BTW, on this site,  for people who have celebrity crushes, started by Christy.

[Jane]

Hi Roxanne, so glad it's not just me. Real life celeb MDs are no fun at all and as you say are hard to give up with all the info you can get about them online these days.

I'm not used to this website yet, didn't realsie about groups...will go and have a looksy. Thanks!

roxanne said:

I wish I could be more detached from real-life celebritites.  Some of my crushes from fiction just look like a specific celebrity and that is easier, but never as intense as the real-life ones.  However, the down side of this is having to deal with their real girl friends or anything else about them you might not like.  The real-life ones though - for me - have always been the hardest to give up.  There is a group, BTW, on this site,  for people who have celebrity crushes, started by Christy.

[Aquarius]

I've been chatting online for some time with a small-time celebrity who lives in another city. He came to town, so I met him, and almost all the topics i MDDed about discussing with him, I did actually discuss them. It was so strange. A relief of some sorts, but also very reassuring. MDD is not about being a muddle-head, it's also about developing your thoughts, ideas, heck who knows, maybe we might be even developing our brains.

[The1andonlyAbber]

I don't daydream about celebrities. However, I daydream a lot about (fictional) TV characters, and I get REALLY annoyed when something new is revealed about a character that contradicts what I daydreamed about them. I usually either come up with a long, complicated explanation for the contradiction or "redo" parts of the daydream.

[The1andonlyAbber]

Point is, I can totally relate to the thing you guys were saying about a celebrity's real life changing and contradicting what you daydreamed about them.