Do you ever believe that your fantasies will come true?

[Paracosm]

I've been going through a rough time lately, obsessing over the activities of my mind, and becoming extremely anxious and frustrated about it all. While trying to make sense of the mess inside my head, it occurred to me that I have always believed that my fantasies will come true.

I'm very much able to differentiate between reality and fantasy, but that doesn't stop me from believing that one day, my fantasy will come to life: that I'll be who I am, do the things I do, and meet the people I know in my fantasy.

I think everyone with MD hopes or wishes that their fantasies will come true, but for me, it's more than that. It's a real belief!

I've gone through several dream worlds in the many years as an MDer, not because I lost interest in the previous fantasies, but because my circumstances have changed, and I've had to change the "plot" of my fantasy to adapt to reality, so that my imagination can come to life.

I know I probably sound crazy. I'm aware that the chance of my fantasy coming true is nil, and that believing such a thing is illogical, but that doesn't stop me from believing. I feel like a nut. I often think that if I allow myself to land in "that job", I'll meet "that person", and so on and so forth. "That person", by the way, is the creation of my imagination and does not really exist. Whenever I feel like the chance of my fantasy coming true is threatened, I start fantasizing about something more realistic as a sort of "backup".

Does anyone else ever believe their fantasies will come true or am I the only crazy one?

[M Hunter]

Yes this definitely applies to me. I know this will never be the case but there's that little irrational part of me that refuses to acknowledge that it's only fantasy. This is one of the reasons I find it very hard to think about the future because I ultimately think I'm somehow gonna get sucked into the world I feel I belong in and if I have to think about a future based in reality I find it very depressing and hard to conceive. 
Just to add to how messed up it is I often abandon real life pursuits because I feel I am somehow turning my back on the daydream life I believe I'll somehow get to. 

[Paracosm]

Wow, yes, you really described how I feel. I sometimes find myself thinking about my imaginary friend and what he would be up to right now. Sometimes I wonder if he fantasizes about me, that our fantasies are a way for us to connect without ever actually meeting each other. And even if I never meet the actual person who's in my fantasy, I still think I might find him in another form, in another person—that somehow, he's out there, and I can find him. I wonder if he'd know me...

I've seriously been wondering if I could have a schizotypal personality. It sure would explain a lot. O_O

[littleschrodinger'scat]

I wouldn't say I entirely believe it, but a lot of my actions and decisions in life are based off of my daydreams. There are parts of me that do believe it. For me, it is probably because I  have Schizotypal Personality Disorder.

[Shhimunky]

I did for...a very long time.

I started lucid dreaming at 11 and reading New Thought books. The first time I became lucid in a dream and started having my way with the world I was astonished at how all of this power and knowledge was right under my nose for the past 11 years without me knowing it. At that point I figured, waking life probably works off the same principles (mentally created universe). I figured my fantasies were my own personal direction. I figured the only thing keeping me from living them was if I did not properly command the world with my mind.

I lived under that impression for many years and became quite a hermit because of it.

Now I'm trying to come to terms with the fact that I was wrong. Every part of me WANTS to believe I am not wrong (and I was never explicitly shown either way), but it's just not healthy behavior for an adult. I WANT to say I have that control, I want to say my head is the kingdom of heaven, I want to say all that, but I cannot.

[M Hunter]

I'm a lucid dreamer as well Shhimunky. I tend to live out my daydreams when I'm lucid so I suppose on some level they are real. I consider my lucid dreams real in the sense that I experience them as I would waking life and although they don't take place in physical reality the concept of reality in itself is subjective.

However I do find that my desire to become lucid on a night greatly outweighs my desire to wake up in the morning.

[Haleigh]

I do this too. I was supposed to meet "the one" at 13. When I turned 14, I changed it so that we met before my 15th birthday.

Once, when the school year started, the teacher went through the role call. I heard the name of one of my main characters, and I was sooo excited! Then he turned out to bully me the rest of the year... :'( I've since then changed his name (in my dds), but it didn't fit so I just made a whole new character. I'll always miss the original character though. Feels like someone killed one of my family members. :'(

[Shhimunky]

M Hunter said:

I'm a lucid dreamer as well Shhimunky. I tend to live out my daydreams when I'm lucid so I suppose on some level they are real. I consider my lucid dreams real in the sense that I experience them as I would waking life and although they don't take place in physical reality the concept of reality in itself is subjective.

However I do find that my desire to become lucid on a night greatly outweighs my desire to wake up in the morning.

That is amazing that you can get lucid on a nightly basis, M Hunter. I used to lucid dream about 4-5 times a week when I was a young teenager. That was before a belief that reality was controllable formed. Now that I'm OVER that, I've been considering retraining myself to get lucid again. I would love to get to back where I was, let alone nightly. That's incredible.

[M Hunter]

Well it kind of goes in waves for me. Some times I get lucid maybe 1-2 times a night but other times my lucidity disappears and I can have dry spells that usually last 2 weeks. The worst was a month. Those periods get very very depressing for me.

I do spend virtually all my time practicing though.
This is a great program developed by a popular youtube lucid dreamer that reminds you to do reality checks. It either pops up in a message or you can set it to audio. I'd highly recommend using it especially if you are starting out again. It's a safe website as well in case you're a person that doesn't like clicking on unknown links.
http://rcreminder.com/

(PS. Sorry for hijacking the original post Paracosm)

[Shhimunky]

I know exactly what you're talking about with the wishing you could believe again.

Anette Lesley said:

When I was around 15 I strongly believed that one day (when I grow up) I'm gonna meet a celebrity I used to obsess and daydream constantly about and that we are going to be together. I remember I honestly believed in that and there was nothing strange about it. At that time, everything for me seemed possible.

Now that i'm double that age i don't believe in anything anymore, even though my dd's are quite vivid. I wish i did though, no matter how crazy it would seem, it would give me that extra dopamine and serotonin kick, a hope, so I would not appear all the time like I'm forced to exist in this world.

[Lisa p]

I am at this same point as well.  YES I believe/believed my fantasies would come true...no matter how far fetched they are or aren't.  All the people in my fantasy are real...they are breathing living people.  I realized this past year that I'm not always able to differentiate between reality and fantasy. When someone in my fantasy became involved with a woman in the real world....I was devastated in my daily life and fantasy world.  I still am in pain in the real world because of it and in the fantasy I now cut him down all the time trying to hate him.  In the real world I'm now hating everything this man is involved in...unfortunately it's a HUGE part of my real life as well.  It's been hell and my emotions go up and down every minute.  I can't even attend a big charity event because I'm afraid if I see him I will be emotionally distraught and will have to hide it since no one knows about my MD.  

I feel crazy as you do.  It took me forever to fess about it to 2 friends and they don't even know the extent of it.  I finally met with a new therapist that I'm hoping can help me stop.  She told me to stop fantasizing about real people as a start. It's only been a few days since I've seen the therapist however I haven't been able to not see real people yet.  

I hate my MD these days.  I've been doing it well over 40+ years and have lost about 20+ years where I have no memories in the real world cuz I've lived in my fantasies.  I'm trying really hard to give it up.  It's HAAARD.  I've lived and done many cool things in my life but I have to rely on friends memories cuz I don't remember cuz I always went into fantasy land either during or right after.  It's sad for me.....

[Teagan Heart]

 Yeah. I completely feel you on the date to find someone. I was suppose to be married at age 24. My 24th b-day is coming up, and David's Bridal has yet to even give me an appointment lol. You say he bullied you. What! Was it really that bad? Maybe he had a crush on you. Anyway, if you are feeling bad, please don't because things'll get better if you let it.
Haleigh said:

I do this too. I was supposed to meet "the one" at 13. When I turned 14, I changed it so that we met before my 15th birthday.

Once, when the school year started, the teacher went through the role call. I heard the name of one of my main characters, and I was sooo excited! Then he turned out to bully me the rest of the year... :'( I've since then changed his name (in my dds), but it didn't fit so I just made a whole new character. I'll always miss the original character though. Feels like someone killed one of my family members. :'(