Long time no see everyone!!

So, my previous post was rather depressing, and I was honestly not well mentally. Now I'm much better. 

I've decided to post an update, and this post is really important to me personally as it is my anniversary on this website. It's been a year since I discovered the community of people just like me. It feels surreal, but I somehow managed to…

Hi everyone. I promised to myself that I'll post my honest feelings, so now I've decided to write an update. I've dreamt again.

Life has been rough recently so one day I couldn't resist the urges. At first it felt like heaven. But now as I continued daydreaming it started to get worse. Now life feels unbearable again. I know that I am strong enough to start again. Even if fall again, I'll pick myself up, over and…

I promised that I’ll post frequently, so here I am, rewriting this whole post again, because I googled how to say ‘action movie’ in English and the text just disappeared… So just know that I had enough dedication to share my thoughts with you Σ੧(❛□❛✿)



Life has been… pretty okay honestly. Sounds so unusual to me, because then I had MD every day of my life was a living hell. Now days are mostly quiet and mundane; I go to the gym, study, eat, go to bed, go to the gym, study, go to…

It’s been almost a half year since I wrote my first post. I guess, It’s time to write an update.



In the previous post I said that I got into my dream university. Maybe I was delusional, but I thought that my life would change to the better instantly. That I’ll find my first love. But life is life, so I was rejected multiple times. I think you know what people say after hearing such things: “It’s not your fault, it happens to everyone!”

And I knew it, but someone inside me kept…

Recently I have found this website and realised that I am not the only one with Maladaptive Daydreaming. I want to share my story here, sorry for my bad English, I’m not a native speaker. 

So, it all started when I was 11-12 years old, after watching Harry Potter movies and reading the books. Since then I’ve been dreaming constantly. Dreaming about myself as a hero, a beautiful girl (I was bullied for being ‘ugly’), a savior.…