I promised that I’ll post frequently, so here I am, rewriting this whole post again, because I googled how to say ‘action movie’ in English and the text just disappeared… So just know that I had enough dedication to share my thoughts with you Σ੧(❛□❛✿)



Life has been… pretty okay honestly. Sounds so unusual to me, because then I had MD every day of my life was a living hell. Now days are mostly quiet and mundane; I go to the gym, study, eat, go to bed, go to the gym, study, go to…

It’s been almost a half year since I wrote my first post. I guess, It’s time to write an update.



In the previous post I said that I got into my dream university. Maybe I was delusional, but I thought that my life would change to the better instantly. That I’ll find my first love. But life is life, so I was rejected multiple times. I think you know what people say after hearing such things: “It’s not your fault, it happens to everyone!”

And I knew it, but someone inside me kept…

Recently I have found this website and realised that I am not the only one with Maladaptive Daydreaming. I want to share my story here, sorry for my bad English, I’m not a native speaker. 

So, it all started when I was 11-12 years old, after watching Harry Potter movies and reading the books. Since then I’ve been dreaming constantly. Dreaming about myself as a hero, a beautiful girl (I was bullied for being ‘ugly’), a savior.…