Hello all. Its been a while since I've posted/commented anything on here. Last time I was here, I was planning a wedding, about to move into a new house and I was working at my aunt's Docotors office. I think it was almost two years ago.....eeesh. I don't know if anyone remembers me or remembered chatting a little with me but from what I saw on here a lot of people come and go for different periods of time.

I still get email notifications when people post in groups I'm apart of and I…

Well as most of you probably noticed I haven't been on in a while. I have been really busy with work and was exhausted last week, and this week I realize why I was starting to feel run down. Its because I have a kidney stone (no fun). I have felt extremely crappy the past two days. I am back at work today and starting to feel better just kind of weak. I hope everyone had a wonderful Valentine's (if you celebrate it)! B came over with a card and a new movie for us to cuddle up and watch :) so…

Small victories can go a long way. Instead of trying to tackle all of my goals, I have started to focus on little things here and there. Slowly, I think they are starting to make a difference.

For a while now I have been interested in cake, cupcake, and cookie decorating and designing. It started when the food network challenges became popular and I was drawn in by the creations each of the chef's did with food. I love food, especially sweets. I have been watching several baking blogs…

For the past few days I've really hit some low points. I just feel disappointed. Disappointed in myself for not being as successful job wise as I want to be, disappointed in my day to day interactions, disappointed in pulling away from people, disappointed in not getting projects done/started that I want to, just overall disappointment. I try to tell myself that I did just graduate so I won't get that 'dream' job right away, but I still feel so unfulfilled. Of course I blame the daydreaming…

So, I had this poem that I wrote years ago, and completely forgot about until I was thinking about trying to write again. I searched through my notebooks but couldn't find it and then I remembered that a friend of mine saw it and asked if he could use it for a song/spoken word type thing. I said yes so I thought he might have still had it on his computer and he did!

So he emailed it to me and as I read it, I realized how close it  hit home with my daydreaming (back before I ever knew…