Low Point

[Elizabeth]

For the past few days I've really hit some low points. I just feel disappointed. Disappointed in myself for not being as successful job wise as I want to be, disappointed in my day to day interactions, disappointed in pulling away from people, disappointed in not getting projects done/started that I want to, just overall disappointment. I try to tell myself that I did just graduate so I won't get that 'dream' job right away, but I still feel so unfulfilled. Of course I blame the daydreaming (stupid high expectations versus real life), but even that doesn't cheer me up as much as it normally does.

They are changing too. Very scattered, like I have daydreaming ADD or something. I keep switching around and can't find one to really get into. Its making me frustrated and agitated. Then I realize how upset my stupid daydreaming is making me and I feel even more pathetic. It will get better I know, I just feel so empty right now.

Maybe tomorrow will be better.

[Elizabeth]

Thanks for your comments. I'm doing better right now though its just a one day at a time thing. I have accomplished things in my past that I didn't think I could do, so I don't know why I am so anxious right now. I just have to keep striving for my goals and  hoping I can reach them somehow.  I think its because I don't know what I want or where I need to be. My major is so open so there are so many paths that I can take, it overwhelms me and I'm not sure which one will make me happy. I'm ok for right now, even if its not my dream job per se, and that check that comes every two weeks does help because I am getting somewhere :)

[Andrea]

I can relate so much this. I'm still in college but I had so many high expectations before I came here about how I'd have the best grades and amazing friends and be on this club and that team and go to the gym and blah blah blah. And I've honestly accomplished none of it. 

So this makes me feel disappointed, and then that makes me slightly depresses and so I daydream some more to help me cope. And then it just turns into a vicious cycle I can't seem to escape. Anyways, the point of this ramble is that you're not alone. I feel the same way and I just wish there was a way to end this mess we've created. 

[Laila]

I'm going through something pretty similar right now. I've wasted seven months not getting anywhere after graduation, DDing all my time away. Now it's already January 2012! I can't believe it. Things are going to have to change around here now. I'm quite tired of disappointing myself, especially my parents, who almost feel like they wasted their money sending me to college. I'm tired of coming up with excuses to explain why I can't proceed. I'm really nervous about working, as I don't imagine my first job to be a 'dream job' either. But we all gotta start somewhere, I guess. Anyway, hang in there! xD

[Elizabeth]

thank you greyartist, its nice to be able to talk to others who will understand and can even offer advice or kick me in the pants if needed :)

[greyartist]

I really hope you start to feel better soon. But I can relate to everything you said, I think most of us here go through those times as well. The new year seems to bring a spotlight on all we haven't acomplised making it a depressing time.