I want a life without you

Please just turn your back on me.



I want a life of pure existence

Please just vanish immediately.



I want a life of genuine happiness

Please just disappear from me.



I want a life of unfathomable liberty

Please just emancipate my heart completely.



I want a life of unpretentious peace

So please release my mental captivity.



I want a life of uncomplicated unity

Please just let me go… Continue

There's another me. It's terrifying.



There's another me that I dont want to be by my side but never leaves me when everyone will.



There's another me who messes my life but brought it altogether when no one else will.



There's another me that I hate but cares for me more than anyone will.



There's another me who I despise to see everytime in the mirror but desires to make me laugh when there's no one to cheer me up.



There's another me that I… Continue

I'm losing the will to live..



or maybe I have lost it long ago..





im not suicidal.





but I wont mind if I wont woke up anymore



I wont mind if I will be hit by a train



I wont mind if I will be diagnosed with an incurable disease





I wont mind if I would die today.





but I'm confused as well, how could not having the will to live, not suicidal at all?





How can someone exist but not… Continue

"That Nagging Feeling.."



Have you ever had that, that nagging feeling? And the memories that came flashing back with it? If yes, you can probably relate with me. But if not, maybe someday you'll be able to understand what I'm saying.



It started, err, I really can't remember when it all started..hehe..Hmm.. All I know is that I have felt that throughout my entire life. Since I was a kid, I felt alone. And lonely. The feeling of being both empty and full has always bothered… Continue

Are we crazy?



There were times when my family have called me crazy or insane when they are very angry at me. Of course the words are harsher in our language. During those times I heard those words, I've thought that perhaps they have caught me daydreaming/smiling or making expressions in my face. I've never asked them why those words. They can call me stupid, or other terms but called me crazy and insane. I cant remember when did I started daydreaming. All I could remember is that… Continue