I apologize in advance that this may be a little messy. I'm not sure where to start.

I've always been indecisive and afraid of settling. It takes me forever to make some rather trivial decisions such as the things I want and the things I want to experience. Sometimes I feel as if my daydreams have caused this by taking out my "identity," so to speak, and that I want to be very careful with who I "really" am. I always wished that I would "be me" naturally; as in no hesitations when it…

I apologize in advance for jumping around and making little sense.

A few weeks ago, I met someone online and was talking to them quite a bit for a few days. It was definitely in "real me" fashion, and as a result, the dding stopped in its usual fashion. I guess I was having DDs about this person. They were kind of brief, I guess. I have a hard time just "doing things" without envisioning it as something seen through the eyes as someone spying on me, and its a bit more fabricated than…

Now, as a result of daydreaming actual people, or perhaps just from looking out at the "real world" once in a while, I feel as if I miss or am missing out on parts of life. I've kept myself in a box (which contains myself, my computer, and my DDs) and whenever I look out of it, I realize that things happen around me. I'm not sure if I can handle change, or that I have had daydreams so consistent that I dislike real change, or that I dislike real progression of time. I see other people and…

Hello, my name is Taylor. I'm going to apologize in advance that this may be a long introduction and that it may jump around to different things quickly.

I have probably been daydreaming for most of my life. When I was a kid, it was simple games of "pretend" that I would play by myself quietly, etc. It was usually just characters I made up in their own little worlds. 

My daydreams started becoming about myself when I was about 11 or so. I had a crush on someone in my class (I…