so sorry for the low volumn! I used a new hands free headset for my phone. No volumn control on it. Not sure what I'll do next week. If I have to hold the phone I won't be able to type in chat.

So scared I'll freeze up. But we'll see. Come by the chat room or call in. The topic is daydream characters.

http://www.blogtalkradio.com/daydreaming/2012/09/29/maladaptive-daydreaming-disorder-our-characters

Done four shows so I guess that's a month. For the first time I had two callers on the last show, it was prerecorded so I couldn't stop it to answer them. But this Saturday I plan to go live so I can. Very frightened at the thought of it. Maybe a total disaster. If so I'll go back to recording it. Maybe it will help with my shyness but I hope there will not be allot of dead air. Hoping for the best.

There are suggested diets for treatment of Schizophrenia, so it may help MD as well. I found some on livestrong.com, I just searched for treating Schizophrenia with diet and found it. My son has Schizophrenia. Their recommendations are:

Reduce sugar, carbohydrate and caffeine intake. This will help your blood sugar stay balanced. Many drugs prescribed to treat schizophrenia can mess with your blood sugar, so avoiding excess stimulants can help keep it at a desired level. A study…

There is no normal. Normal for the spider is chaos for the fly.

I'm reserching for the MD radio show and want to do a show on characters. I would love to have some input from you all on what to discuss about our characters. This is what I have so far as an outline,

Are you in your Daydreams?

Where do your characters come from? TV, movies, books, real life, made up?

Do you think all the characters are some part of your own subconscious?

Has your…

After learning about MD I really started wondering about him having it. He seems to have all the signs. He has never had close friends, all thru school. He is 23 now. Introverted, stays to himself. We talked about it last night and I told him about MD and the symptoms. He says he has always been that way. But it doesn't seem to interfer with his life so much. So maybe his is not as bad. But he has epilepsy and is on meds, so it may help control his MD as well. I wish he had talked to me…

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I am so tired of living in a dream and just exsisting in the physical. I don't want to dream, I don't want to go there, see them. I want to be awake, to enjoy life while I'm here. I try to snap myself out of it, live in the moment. But I look around, look at myself,.... empty.... meaningless exsistance. I can't remember the last time I enjoyed anything.  Anyone looking at me would see a good life, good job, good marriage. I should be happy. Days, years seem to pass faster as I get older. I'm…

One famous daydreamer in history was Isaac Newton: "Growing up Isaac barely maintained average grades and often lacked attention in school. Villagers looked upon his daydreaming, habits of reading for hours at a time, and keeping records of his interests as mere eccentricity.."…

come chat with me.

http://www.blogtalkradio.com/daydreaming/2012/09/08/maladaptive-daydreaming-are-we-getting-noticed

Found a few interesting things on tweeter ScorpioScope. Scary true!

You will never find a #scorpio without secrets

Scorpio will stare into space and daydream for hours…

I've been trying to think and talk about other things but the dression is getting worse. Maybe if I write about it it will help. Fox was a retired racing greyhound, I adopted him when he was 3yrs old, 9yrs ago. He would have been 12yrs old in December. That is way past the life expectancy of a greyhound, 9 to 11 years is max. He started acting sick and I took him to the vet. He was running a high fever and dehydrated. They kept him but he did not improve. After a few days they did an xray.…

I listen to blogtalk radio allot. So I searched there for shows talking about MD. None. So I wondered about making one. So the next person who went there would find something. Kind of like Cordella's YouTube videos but no video. It would also be kind of like therapy for me. Because I have no one I can talk to about it. I think I will prerecord it but I would run the chat room live while it played. You can do 30 min slots. Just thinking out loud here. :)

Interpreting  daydreams like night dreams. I have been putting in symbols, themes from my DDs into the dream dictionary to see what came out. Thinking maybe my mind is trying to tell me something through my DDs. Well it does seem to fit me, points out all my bad mental hangups. Emotional needs that go unmet. Yes it's all true, BUT what the heck am I suppose to do about it???? Why does my mind want to torment me with things I…

I normally never dream at night, but have lately. Last night I dreamed of waking up to deep snow outside. Here is a meaning of snow from a dream dictionary. The first part does discribe me.

Snow

To see snow in your dream signifies your inhibitions, unexpressed emotions and…

This is an experiment to see if writing about a reoccurring DD will help make it go away. There is this scene that keeps replaying, like a song being stuck in my head, for months now. I am not a writer, I am an artist, so the use of words is strange for me. But we will see if this helps me move forward.

The Chase

There is snow everywhere, no sound, silence, the way it is when there is deep snow. No rustle of leaves or chirping of birds. All the earth watches in silence. I can…

There is no pain you are receding
A distant ship, smoke on the horizon.
You are only coming through in waves.
Your lips move but I can't hear what you're saying.
When I was a child
I caught a fleeting glimpse
Out of the corner of my eye.
I turned to look but it was gone
I cannot put my finger on it now
The child is grown,
The dream is gone.
I have become comfortably numb.

Excert from Pink Floyd -comfortably numb