I just got the “you’re such a loner” talk at the gym today by one of the personal trainers 

You’re always alone 

You just come in, exercise alone, don’t talk to anyone, so serious and leave 

You’re really quiet

You seem very humble though 

You seem like the church-going type 

How many friends do you have?

Do you go out…

I am trying to change my life but I have the problem of laziness. Real life activities are so tiring. 

I had this idea in my head that I would become a fit, intellectual and spiritual person  and practice  music for fun (and forget my loneliness, lack of connection, depression, social awkwardness and just general failures). 

But…

• Running 
• Studying 
• Prayer/meditation/bible study 
• Learning music…