I've managed to go over 40 days without MD, but I still wanted to do it. I felt more and more anxious and everything seemed more dull. I finally told my boyfriend about it, and he went digging in Reddit forums to try find me some helpful advice. I joined too. Finally, he sends me a massive post from someone who quit for months. And the main point they made was that balance is more important than quitting. How can you just go back to normal life after living a fantasy? It's so boring. So now…

Hey! So by some miracle, I've finally managed to surpass my 14-day-streak of not maladaptive daydreaming. 33 days, woohoo!!! I'm just gonna tell you my thoughts and experiences in dot-points for the sake of time and ease:

• Despite still having strong urges to do it every now and then, it's starting to repulse me. Thinking about it reminds me of how horrible I would feel about myself after doing it.
• Even though I have not properly MDed for a month, it's still manifesting…