I apologize in advance that this may be a little messy. I'm not sure where to start.

I've always been indecisive and afraid of settling. It takes me forever to make some rather trivial decisions such as the things I want and the things I want to experience. Sometimes I feel as if my daydreams have caused this by taking out my "identity," so to speak, and that I want to be very careful with who I "really" am. I always wished that I would "be me" naturally; as in no hesitations when it…