Hi there,

I am trying to quit MD. Go all the way this time. On my own 5 days in, and I am not doing it right. 

I know that I have been skirting around any real deprivation. I have been going soft on myself, by allowing myself to watch DD-related stuff on Youtube. This is, as you might imagine, a waste of time. When I waste time like this, I know that I am wasting away. I can't look at myself in the mirror for more than 5 seconds without reeling…

Note: Long-winded post ahead. Peruse at your own risk. :P 

So I have to get this out. 

I am on Day 4 of trying to quit DD. Any setbacks in that plan then? Why yes. Yes there are. It’s a bad time to quit MD for me, because I want so badly to be absorbed in the political issues taking place across an ocean from me. I am pretty sure that Scotland is about to get a second chance at gaining its independence from the UK. 

I am a half-jewish American…