Reading some blog posts on here made me realise something - my MD has set me back years. I had a distorted view of who I wanted to be through my daydreams - a violent person surrounded by drama and boys. And I realized, this is what I wanted when I was in primary school. I didn't want this to be my life when I'm out in the real world. But I was still clinging to this version of me, one with anger issues who can do whatever she wanted. 

A few months ago, I had some time without my…