A few years ago I "broke-down" crying to my mom, telling her how  I hated myself, how terrible things were for me and how at that point in time I didn't want to live anymore. She completely blew me off. It took a lot of time for me to build up the confidence to do so, so you can imagine the damage it did when my efforts were not at all reciprocated by an appropriate response. She would tell me things are going to be okay, that I should calm down, and then she would get frustrated and yell…

Its been a while since I've been on here, so hello again!

Things have gone way downhill for me, my life is a mess. I am behind on everything and worst thing is I'm not panicked when I should be. I can't bring myself to do school work or attend to any of my obligations (even the ones I love). For the past two months I've literally been wasting away -  and just getting by. I'm really struggling, MD anxiety everything, I barely got my college applications in on time, I couldn't bring…