When the real world starts to fall apart. I wish I could just disappear in my daydream. Just found out my husband of 16yrs has a girlfriend. A girl from highschool that he reconnected with on facebook and has been texting. He meet her saturday night at a coffee shop to comfort her after she left her husband. He swears there has not been any other contact but he has "feelings" for her. He assures me he has no plans of leaving me. WTF!!!! then why tell me all this crap? Now I feel horrible, I…

Not having much control this weekend. Not wanting to do anything else, the erge to lay down and DD is so strong. My husband wanted to go to a coffee shop and listen to a live music performer but my social anxiety kicked in and I told him to go without me. After he left I got in bed around 7 and daydreamed til he got home at 10:30pm. Then tried to go to sleep, back awake DDing around 5am til 9:30.  

I did make it to the grocery store. Now back fighting the erge to DD.

He asked…