Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
Sometimes this happens to me. I'll have a really intense, really good daydream and I just play it over and over in my head. I'll try to start from the beginning and change somethings, but I end up losing focus and snapping out of my daydream. Like my brain won't let me alter the dream, it was perfect and it has to stay that way. I can respect that, but what I don't get is why it plays on repeat. I can't think of anything else, I just have to live that pretend moment over and over again until I can't daydream anymore. Does this, or anything similar happen to anyone else?
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Definitely happened to me countless times. Before I'd go to bed, I'd replay my favorite daydream every night, same scene, same plot - and sometimes it'd last for months. I try to move on, and begin another chapter, but I always end up repeating the old one. It's like an insatiable hunger.
I also replay favorite segments of a song when daydreaming. It actually never happened to me that I could listen to a song from the beginning to the end when daydreaming, instead I just have to replay my favorite part over and over and over and over again until I'm satisfied and can finally move on onto the next one. This urge in my opinion appears to be completely compulsive - I simply cannot sit still and play it from the beginning to the end, I have to replay my favorite parts, or else I'll feel hindered, I'll feel that huge energy is building up in me without me being able to let it out.
I also replay favorite scenes from the movies to an obsessive amount when watching on computer. Just like with music, my mind wonders while doing it.
yes! Maybe it is to fill a need or void and that scene does it some how. I had one that I could never finish, like the same scene would replay but I couldn't move on to another "chapter" or ending. I wrote about it in a blog post and after that it stopped. I was able to start a whole new DD. Strange, but maybe after writing it out, and reading it back it became, like someone else's story and I could move on.
Yes i so that too. Sometimes i'll alter what they say but i do that all the time.
this happens especially when i listen to certain songs
That happens to me too, often if I dd to a certain song and keep on listening to that same song it happens.
This also reminds me of sometimes when I dd and I want my character to do something but it doesn't do it, its like I can't control it. Like just the other day I was trying to make my character walk straight but it would start straight and then kind of go to the right and dissolve into the pavement, and I just couldn't make it walk straight, it was so frustrating.
Zoe, I know the feeling. I never felt in control either. Metaphorically speaking, I feel like I myself and my mind are two different entities. It's my mind that weaves the story, and sometimes even though I want to change some details, I just can't.
For me, it's never just one song, I have playlists. I'll listen to a playlist on repeat and repeat my dd. I find that I actually create better dds in silence and then add music to them.
Zoe and Eretaia, I'm right there with you. I can't control my characters at times. I'll try to have them say something and it comes out wrong. It's weird and aggravating, but when I think about it, it might be the better way to dd. If our minds and ourselves are two different entities, maybe our mind knows something that we don't. Maybe this is why we get stuck and repeat. We might not understand it, but our subconscious has a reason, maybe it even knows best.
Oh, I assure you, our subconscious knows the reason goddamn well. It plays an enormous part in constructing a daydream and we're far less in control than we imagine. In fact, it's similar to a real dream: it's not our conscious self that's constructing our dreams, we don't even control what happens there and we're merely observers in a plot woven by our subconscious. Daydreams, naturally, are far weaker than real dreams; we have control, but our subconscious is still strong and decides some things for itself which we can't influence. It's a fantasy after all - so irrational yet, deep inside, so logical. Some of my daydreams are quite absurd and I don't understand them, I don't understand their purpose at all - but come on, is it possible that such a compulsive fantasy can be irrational? No, no way. I'm convinced that some parts of my daydreams are purely a product of some subconscious conflict I never truly addressed although at this point, it seems unrelated and irrational.
Adriana S said:
Zoe and Eretaia, I'm right there with you. I can't control my characters at times. I'll try to have them say something and it comes out wrong. It's weird and aggravating, but when I think about it, it might be the better way to dd. If our minds and ourselves are two different entities, maybe our mind knows something that we don't. Maybe this is why we get stuck and repeat. We might not understand it, but our subconscious has a reason, maybe it even knows best.
Oh so often...
If I hear certain songs that have previously been connected to a particularly intense DD, I immediately replay that scenario in my head. Once the association is there, I can't seem to shake it.
Yep, too many times to count! It used to be on negative stuff when I was like 12-15, then it was positive stuff, comes in waves.
Yes, this happens to me many times. At certain times, I have a favorite daydream and it can be triggered by a tv show that I watched, a story that I read, a song that I listened to, etc. When it is triggered, the daydream starts repeating itself over and over again in my head. The favorite daydream repeats itself until I invent a better daydream to replace it. And the whole cycle starts all over again.
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