Ive messed up in my life again recently and my mother confronted me about my certain peculiar attachment to my old photo collection of a group/band that Ive liked since my childhood. she was in tears again and asked me ''why do you have the photos everywhere with you?'' i gave her a BS excuse of holding on to something 'good' from my childhood to ease the pain of my abusive and traumatic life but i tend to do this to escape reality in addition to using it as a coping tool
i feel like i should sometimes just tell her but i'm afraid of letting it all our AND having to explain something like this to her. i just found out this thing had a name a year ago and i dont want to explain talking out loud silently or getting lost for hours in my own insignifigant thoughts
Maybe you should confess and tell her about this. The worst thing that could happen is that your mom doesn't believe you and thinks you're making a big fuss out of daydreaming. But at least you tried.