The can of worms has been opened...kind of.

I brought up the daydreaming to my therapist yesterday. I described (very generally) what I was experiencing, and refused to give any details when asked. He seemed somewhat curious, but eventually the conversation went in other directions anyway. Our discussions as of late have more or less revolved around the same issues.

Thing is, I didn't have the balls to actually mention that most of my daydreams lately were about him...So I emailed him instead,afterward. I didn't go into any detail about it- as a matter of fact I made a point of saying I didn't want to. (As long as he's aware that they're entirely non-sexual)

Thing is though, now that I've sent the email I'm kind of having second thoughts...I'm sure he's going to be curious now, and although he's respectful to a fault, that doesn't mean he's not going to still try to ask me questions about it. Which will inevitably make me wilt in embarrassment.

On the other hand, what if it's embarrassing to HIM, and I've just brought up something that really doesn't change or clarify anything we didn't already know? I'll have exposed myself for nothing and made things awkward.

I guess I'm being kind of neurotic about it, but I can't help it. :S

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Comment by roxanne on November 5, 2011 at 6:20pm
Have you seen your therapist since?  Give us an update.  Also, I wasn't clear whether you told him in the e-mail that he was in your DD's.  Or is that still left vague?
Comment by Mira on November 1, 2011 at 7:19pm
Thank you. :)
Comment by Ashley N. on October 29, 2011 at 5:17pm
On one hand, it sounds like you've been juggling the issue of telling him or not. Try thinking of the e-mail you sent as you getting it off your chest. I imagine that he will handle the information in a respectful manner. He might ask you about it and I can see where it would be embarrassing, but I also think that you might end up feeling relief afterwards. It seems to have been waying on your mind quite a bit, from what you've described in previous blog posts. I'll cross fingers for a non-stressful next meeting for you. Have a good evening, and don't worry too much. :)

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