Hurling myself out of my comfort zone

[Ocean Breeze]

I was talking with my mom on the phone yesterday, and during my usual, years-in-the-process, ongoing attempt to sound like everything was fine, I burst into tears and couldn't stop crying.  The shocking part was that my mother wasn't surprised.  She was worried about the fact that I was so isolated and stressed.  And she doesn't even know about the MD part.

She's right.  I need to interact with actual human people more.  I'm spending the day with her tomorrow, and then I'm going to start going to church.  I'm agnostic, but I need the community and some element of spirituality in my life.  I'm also going to join a community group that gets together once a week.  Even if I'm not into it, I have to get out of my house and start interacting with actual human people before I go completely insane.  Because I think having no one to talk to but my imaginary people is going to make me have a real nervous breakdown.

[Joey B]

I find when I do go 'out,' -- even if I don't actually interact, just being around people does feel better.  I'm also not very active in my church, but if my grandmother wants company I go... sort of breaking cabin fever in any way possible.  I know just how you feel with the nervous breakdown.  Right now I'm sort of numb with all this going on my head, relaxing it.  I can talk to my family, but they just gossip and talk about what needs to be fixed, so instead I talk to my dog. =( 

[Ocean Breeze]

I'm a whole bunch of people in my daydreams.  The one common thread is that I'm popular.  That's great that you are taking a guitar class!  I hope you have fun with it.

[Windy City Day Dreamer]

Who are you in your daydreams? This may give you a clue on what you should do in terms of bringing actual human people in your life.  In my daydreams,  I am a famous singer and can play the guitar.  I am stepping out of my daydreams slowly. In real life, I just enrolled in a group beginning guitar glass. 

[Ocean Breeze]

Yesterday was a very healing day.  I spent the day with my parents, which was very nice because I normally don't have anyone to talk to if I'm not at work, and then I met with the community group last night.  My imaginary friends were still everywhere, and it was a struggle to stay in the present and listen to what the actual human people were saying, but it was worth the effort.  I woke up feeling better this morning, and I have more energy.  The MD world is still all around me, but I will find a way to spend more time in the real world and push the MD people out of the way.  This Sunday, I'll try the new church.

[Laila]

How often do you leave your house? Sometimes I only go out once or twice a week, but I live with my parents and have them to hang out with. But I know it's important that I get out more. I won't survive as a psychologist in the future if I don't become a "people person." I'm working on getting a job so I can change my loner habits. Anyway, I hope you enjoy time with your mom!

[Yaz]

I think that would be a good idea, I also don't interact with people very often and it's driving me mad!