Daydreaming Destroys EVERYTHING.

[Tila]

 

Hey Wild Minds,

 

I want to tell you that,

My Daydreams are destroying every area of my life. Slowly, but it's happening.

Trying to refrain from daydreaming completely, as I have been trying religiously to do for the past 4 days, is like trying to win a boxing match with a chloroform soaked rag tied around your face. Constantly struggling to rub your eyes and just cope in this slow world that you know will never be as instantly rewarding as the personalized, perfect one you've created. Slipping back into my daydreams during the day is like granting myself a few blessed minutes to sprint without weights on my shoes. 

In life, a sunrise only comes once every 24 hours. In my head, I can replay that sunrise every second, forever indefinitely.  

 

But I want to stop being a ghost in my own life. I know that real achievements are probably more rewarding than any daydream. I know I have a lot to live for. But my daydreams continue to beckon me every minute, and it takes extra mental energy to pull myself away each time. I wish I could tell my teachers, friends, and family how difficult this is, but I think they would just dismiss it, and say something that implies I should stop being so lazy. I want them to know that I am not a lazy person, and that I care immensely about my work! But they don't know this.

 

I know someone here will get where I'm coming from. You don't have to say anything, I know you're there. :)

[Wish Upon A Wish]

I'm the same, but I can not last a full four days without dding, only half a day if I'm lucky. I think it's pretty much an addiction, but not from outside chemicals. If that makes sense.

[Tila]

Yes! It is always hardest in the beginning. ;) I will just have to keep pushing my comfort limits.