Hello People! 


This is my absolute first blog so allow me to extend my warm greetings to all of you.It's an absolute relief to know that I am not the only one in this world with this weird disorder(I know this line has become monotonous now as every Mder says it)which,I discovered a few months back,had a name,Thanks to Prof. Eli Somer,and my gratitude for the person who came up with the idea of creating this website for all of us which not only gives me a platform to share my troubles and know yours but also a sense of hope that I might recover someday from Maladaptive Daydreaming and reconnect absolutely with actual life around. 

I,being an analytical person(or so i would like to think),have been studying the way my brain has been behaving and tricking itself making my life an absolute misery in the past 18 years of my highly scattered existence and reached several conclusions about the dysfunction. Mind you I won't just be speaking about MD here but also,as I suspect, it's evil by-product,Obsessive Compulsive Disorder.

I am an obsessive compulsive planner who just can't live with uncertainities of any kind.I make very intricate plans and revise them in my mind a 100 times.All of it drains my energy to an extent of not being able to implement those plans properly leading to more plans.So,yes you gathered right,my life is pretty difficult...but still manageable. I have been daydreaming for as long as a I can remember.Maybe from class 3 or 4 or 5,from the times I was introduced to headphones my daydreaming became more and more intense.In younger days,Shitty tv serials that I used to watch,triggered them.Now just about anything,a ,a thought,a film,a conversation,novel,and especially music are quite efficient triggers.And at times I guess I Don't even require a trigger,I just start. Daydreaming is a pleasure that I can't deny myself.It's so intensely satisfying,so compensatory for everything   that I wanted to be but couldn't,Everything I wanted to achieve but   couldnt,for a variety of reasons with which I will shortly be boring you with,My social anxiety and fear resulting from my low self-esteem being the foremost amongst those reasons.

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Comment by Fallen Messenger on October 18, 2017 at 3:13pm

I agree with the OCD thing, it's hereditary for me, so I think my MD branched off of my fear that I can't control everything in reality, so I created a world in my head where I can  control anything and everything that happens. And I agree with Kajol, nothing real is interesting enough, I want more action, more love, more hope, a happy ending, but in reality, that comes by sparingly. I would love to hear more from you and welcome to WM!

Comment by Kajol on October 15, 2017 at 5:03am

Marisha, It's like you have said everything absolutely exactly what has been going on with me. This constant struggle is hell. I have started to drift in fantasy in happy situations as well..It's like nothing real is interesting enough. Of course my low self esteem has done it's part beautifully too. We have to get rid of this. We deserve that.

Comment by MatthewR on October 6, 2017 at 11:27pm

Daydreaming is compensatory for me as well. I get so wrapped up in my imagination that I often lose track of time. Compounded over years of doing this (I'm 32 now), my life has become very empty and lonely. I sacrificed time I could have been out being social or pursuing my career to return to my room and daydream about a great life. I deeply regret this now. It also sounds like you and I have many of the same problems that causes us to get lost in our heads: fear, social anxiety, and low self-esteem. I myself was not aware of the fear underlying my flight from reality, but I'm sorry to say I've only made my situation worse over the years. I hope you can grapple with this problem now, so it doesn't become a major obstacle in living the life you want to live. I hope the best for you. Take care, and welcome to WM!

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