Almost two years on (update)

[Reverie]

I haven't visited this site for quite a while but recently I've seen a comment from DebbieP (hi,Debbie!) that made me go back to the post 'My life is perpetual moulding and disintegration' to see how much things have changed.

And they changed a lot.

First of all, yes Debbie, I managed to complete my dissertation and it was the best dissertation of the year. What is more, two months ago I completed another successful dissertation that gave me master's degree.

Currently I am looking for a temporary job and working on my PhD application since the last year's postgrad struggle made me realize that learning more and more is what I want to do in my life and that I actually do have skills and a bit of talent to pursue this path.

I'm in my very first relationship which happily evolved from a close friendship with my crush (and, as it turned out, vice versa). My therapy is coming to an end very soon.

I still daydream, however, less than before and I seem to have more control over how much time I spend 'there'. It is a difficult and slow process of unlearning the tendency to escape into daydreams when I should take an action, and I struggle a lot since I've been doing this for years...but I'm slowly getting there. My ultimate goal isn't to make my daydreams vanish since it can be a great source of inspiration and a tool for dealing with extreme distress, but simply to be in charge rather than letting the daydreaming dictate my life and keeping me in the same place where I don't want to be.

[Alison]

My opinionis different from Source's - I believe that your ability to keep moving was the most important here. And thank you for coming back and for sharing your story - most of your problems happen(ed) to me too - some of them persist, others are gradually fading. I also attend a therapist (cbt) and after half a year of sessions feel its good effect on me a lot. So, thx for inspiring me and confirming that I'm on the right way :)

[Source]

You've come farther than you might think. It takes far greater strength to get moving than to keep moving afterwards. Keep your determination solid and your guard up, and you cannot fail.