Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
Finally got my lawyer to schedule a court date because this has gone over a year now in divorce. I had to meet him to look at the motorcycle to see if I would take it and the payments. yeah I may have scratched the paint but he's beat it up. Its covered in dents and the rear blinkers held on with duct tape. I've been trying to distract my self all day from violents and angry daydreams. I'm 8 months pregnant I don't need to be stressing out, day dreams make my pulse rate soar and I'm already out of breath. I've decorated the tree, caught up on dvr shows and made a stew. always seems to be plenty of time to daydream in there, thier either violent or I'm degrading him or some slut he's with. I'm so broke and I just want to leave this state so much. I just want to go back home but I can't. half my boyfriends family ticks me off. after the whole don't come to thanksgiving and here's a 10 yr old recalled crib for your baby we're royaly pissed at each other. which is fine with me I don't want them to have an influence on my son as they have their favorites and you know he'd get the shitty gifts on holidays while he watched his cousin get the nice stuff. Lets not forget the brother up for murdering his wife is allowed to insult me but shame on me for lashing back pointed out his flaws. My boyfriend is a great guy who admits to being the only one who can stand his family without getting too upset tho he is touchy about thanksgiving and the crib. I wish I could afford it and convince him to go with me back home.