Amy Buttz's Blog (8)

Been Awhile

I have been in therapy since April.  I have been in therapy before, guess it is time again.  In my last blog entry, I wrote that I was afraid if I tackled my issues in therapy, my MDD wouldn't go away.  Have an appointment next week, but feeling pretty depressed today.  I have dealt with a lot of pretty bad stuff and the daydreaming still persists.  I am going to tell my therapist about it when I go.  I feel bad about it now, because this morning I was thinking about my issues, working some…

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Added by Amy Buttz on August 25, 2012 at 6:30pm — No Comments

Getting Better

Well, I never thought I would say this, but things with my daydreaming seem to be gettting better.  I can see most of my issues are with self-loathing.  I see that a lot of other people have issues with productivity and paying attention.  These have never really been an issue for me.  I also have OCD, which (I have to laugh a little here) seems to save me from being unproductive.  It seems to balance me out, because no matter how much I daydream, I am also very driven to be perfect in…

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Added by Amy Buttz on January 22, 2012 at 4:20pm — 1 Comment

Trying Again

First, I want to say thank you for all your supportive comments.  I have looked at daydreaming as something to get rid of for over thirty years.  I have never considered it as something to manage.  I thought of it as a neutral activity, like vacuuming.  Now that I have changed directions and am looking at it from a different perspective, I realize I have feelings involved.  For one thing daydreaming makes me feel safe and secure.  Secondly, when I move away from it, I have feelings of…

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Added by Amy Buttz on December 14, 2011 at 3:17pm — No Comments

Holy Cow!

I am new to this site and discussing my daydreaming is something new to me.  I figured I would make the most of this opportunity and read, comment, encourage, learn, etc.  So I have been reading through different discussions that interest or apply to me and now my anxiety is through the roof and I feel like crying.  I feel like I have jumped into the ocean with no floatation device.  Ha!  My daydreaming is at a minimum right now.  Guess anxiety lessens the daydreaming.  I don't understand…

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Added by Amy Buttz on December 11, 2011 at 6:31pm — 7 Comments

Guidelines

So I have been thinking about how to live with MDD, instead of trying to get rid of it.  This has really eased up a lot of the stress I have over this particular part of my life.  So, here is what I have come up with so far.  1. My relationship with God comes first.  I don't want my daydreaming to run my life instead of God.  2. Real people come before imaginary people.  I don't want to lose my grip on the relationships I have in real life.  3. Make sure my responsibilities are taken care…

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Added by Amy Buttz on December 8, 2011 at 7:30am — 5 Comments

Changing My Destination

My goal in dealing with daydreaming has always been eradication.  Quite frankly, though, nothing has worked.  Anything I have done to try and stop this has failed miserably.  The brief periods where I have put the daydreaming off, did not make it go away.  In fact, that usually makes it come back even stronger and makes me hypersensitive to my main triggers and other things that aren't normally triggers, set it off.  So, after doing some reading about this whole situation, I have been…

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Added by Amy Buttz on December 3, 2011 at 7:16pm — 4 Comments

Triggers and Feelings

First of all, I have been hearing about other peoples' triggers and been thinking about mine.  I know T.V. and movies are big ones.  Words are a big one too.  I love words, the way they look and the way they feel in my mouth when I say them.  It is like rollling some delicious morsel around on my tongue.  In junior high, I started a very elaborate daydream based on the words, "cool, smooth doorknob."  It persists to this day and grows and changes.  I am an older woman and did not grow up…

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Added by Amy Buttz on December 2, 2011 at 8:24am — 1 Comment

Getting Started

Hi, I am new here,  Forgive me if this sounds disjointed, because even though I have been daydreaming for over thirty years, I have only been talking about it as an issue for a few years.  I was so happy to find this website.  Several years ago, I realized the biggest challenge I had every day was daydreaming.  I tried to find information, but couldn't.  Every now and again I would check and finally came across this website. 

I have been daydreaming since I was twelve years old.  I…

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Added by Amy Buttz on December 2, 2011 at 6:42am — 5 Comments

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