I want to tell you about a friend of mine. He's my only friend and his name is Eric. I've known him for about 2 years. There was an immediate connection between us and I felt he understood me like no other. He has taught me so much about life as well as myself. He has guided me and has been there for me during the most difficult times. I can always count on him. He makes me laugh until I cry. He's brought so much joy into my life. He's the most loving and devoted friend I could ever wish… Continue

I don't feel like myself. Honestly, I'm not sure who I am anymore, but it can't be this.



I get irritated over the smallest things, and then the pressure builds and I feel volatile, like a bomb about to go off. I want to shout, scream, and break something. I never let it all out, though. I'm able to keep it to huffing and puffing, emitting steam, and fidgeting, but I can't get myself to calm down. The sounds of people talking, moving around, and the vibrations as they walk irritate me… Continue

It's only getting later and I should be going to bed, but I'm so fed up. I can't convince myself to end this day just so I can experience another. It feels like such a waste.



I don't know why I'm writing this. I never know why I do what I do. I don't even know what it is I'm doing. All I know is that it's becoming easier.



Yes, it's easier than it ever has been to feel sad and accept the feeling, because I don't feel it anymore. There's only a void inside, and a false face… Continue

First and foremost, I want to thank the wonderful members here who gave me advice on telling my family about my MD and DPD. :)



Last night I finally told my sister. I wasn't actually planning on telling her so soon and I was very unsure of myself, but I was fed up and I decided it was about time that I open up. We got started talking about how she thought I was always so depressed, and how I had become especially quiet this week, and I told her the reason why was that everything I had… Continue

I don't think well inside my head. I have to write or talk it out and sound like an idiot while I'm at it. So, here I go: I'm debating with myself over who I should tell about my MD and if I should even tell anyone at all. "Would it help?" Yeah, good question, me.



I know there have been plenty of other people here who have asked the same question, but if I don't get it out myself, I think I'll explode.



Here's the current situation: the only people I could tell are those… Continue