I started therapy a week ago. I'm wondering if it has had some sort of impact on the way  I get in touch with my emotions. Or perhaps, my focus (or lack thereof) has been on different distractions. I've probably spent way more time on the internet. Although, I've done my fair share of work. It's odd. Maybe my interactions at work have really fulfilled my need for emotional validation and attention, which daydreaming usually fills. I have sort of felt this void for daydreaming, but I fill it…

My first gif ever! And I took it from the interview I did as my main character, as part of Escarei's The Famous Project. I just thought this was so cool.

It’s a rare night.

Sleepless. Slightly haunted. In a good way though.

Feeling the memories of past nights reverberate in my bones.

My skin remembers what my head does not.

Things that other people said to me echo in my brain like I just heard it yesterday

But it has been so much longer than that.

Everything feels so far away.

I’m behind a veil.

I’m looking sideways.

I feel a thousand things that I said before on my lips tonight again.

I’m aching…

I didn't receive the type of validation and attention that children should receive. I don't think many of us did.  It caused me in my teens and early 20s to struggle for an acceptance and validation that cannot be found outside of one's parents. I think it's an issue many people struggle with, whether or not they have daydreams. 

What makes it interesting enough for me to post about it though is how these issues are affecting my daydreams. My assistant manager at my job is, in short,…