Hey guys,  just here with my daily update, I put in that sweat equity for 15 hrs!!!,  not easy though, isolation with no distractions while being deprived of DDing at times, not fun, but I promise to all of you MDers, who are trying to stop temporarily until they can control it, It may really suck throughout the day just having too go through the pain of being conscious and focused the whole day, but when all is said and at the end of the day, when you look back on the day it feels good to…

Well, I didn't have time to even DD or at least "surface use" with music, cause I was working next to my study buddy all day at Uni for 14 hours! woot, but all I can say is even though I did have a strong urge at school to ask for my friends headphone and go into my world, I just went for a walk and grabbed some coffee, and came back and just got back into it, getting some fresh air can do the trick sometimes guys!, but only day 3, long way to go, but right now I feel good mainly cause of…

As I figured, the first couple of days are well lets say are extrodinarily difficult to overcome, as in the 2nd day I almost gave into my trigger of music, but was able to keep composed( even took it drained hours of my time just resisting it), but Im glad to say I have made it too Day 2. I honestly felt like crap cause i felt like i need a fix of some DDing, but it will get easier to bear in time i hope. But other than that Im out for the day and hope to make it to day 3.

Hi guys I am starting a thread of blogs, to show you my progress as I overcome MDD, I have done extensive research to have the blueprint of success in overcoming this unproductive act( I know some people may be okay with DDing) but this is holding me back from reaching my full potential. To go along with MDD, I have had a really low self-esteem and acted out as the "nice guy" and let people take my kindness for granted and walk all over me( this includes my ex gf, my ex  friends,…

A couple months back I went through a breakup, and well It was very difficult, and i ended up turning to md to cope with it by goinginto my own imaginary world. It has become harder to cope with after the breakup, and also going forth, I have really bad triggers, like I use "very loud music" too get into my trance and I have the repetitive movement of jumping, which believe it or not has affected my knees, as the impact from jumping has given me knee pain, and im afraid if this persists, im…