Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
I can give u a hug, a big one. You are not alone.
: (( I don't want to live in this world anymore
Dear M, what happened? Please don't do anything that could harm yourself.
If you are afraid you will do something wrong, contact immediately the emergency number of your country.
I know life is hard and nobody gave us the operating instructions.
We just did the best we could. Sometimes the best we could do was to daydream.
We must forgive ourselves and take our life little by little back into our hand. We can't do it alone, that's why we are here, that's why there are people out there that knows how to deal with problems like yours.
The only thing you really want is to be relieve from the pain you feel inside, from the emptiness.
It's not about living. You just don't think, right now, that another way of living is possible. But I can assure you, it is.
I have DMed you the real issue but I have entrapped myself in the world of dreams that real life sucks, everything is a trigger and there are negative triggers that makes me miserable in my dream world to the point that I can't daydreaming which in turn starts to push me in real life and real life sucks, it's depressing and empty like a void. Nothing makes me happy, recently I bought a new car just to distract myself into the real world but guess what nothing makes me happy.
Depression is often mistaken with sadness.
But it's something very different, most of all, it's about emptiness.
You must take care of yourself and search for help, go to therapy. There's no way you can deal with depression alone. Mental health is serious, but somehow we behave like it's not. We would not expect ourselves to just wait and see if pneumonia goes away by itself, we go to the doctor. But with depression, we think that if we can't do it alone, we are weak.
As Cain says, life is better, just give yourself the opportunity to experience it.
You must heal first.
I understand how you're feeling right now and I'm not going to try and undermine what you feel.
But just know, Life is better. I'm not saying it gets better. I'm saying it is better and we all just cannot experience it for some reason.
You deserve to experience life as it should be experienced. And I hope you gather the courage to continue. It's going to be difficult. But know that it's not impossible.
Take care, M.
I'm looking forward to hearing from you here.