The Kinesthetics involoved

[Mohsin Kazi]

Hello Everyone,

Iam an Kinetic MDer i.e I have a specific hand movement (usually occampanied by pacing back and forth ) 

Why do I move back and forth and have to use my hand to day dream ? 

I mean I can understand the excessive fantasizing ,theories that say that it's a defence mechanism to deal with childhood trauma or that it is an addiction .

But just what I don"t understand is that why do I have to make these movements .Are there any theories put forward to explain "this" mechanism .

Kindly enlighten me ,thankyou . 

[Laurel]

This is so surreal. Look how many of us have the same physical symptoms. It's such a relief not to feel so alone. It's making me start to cry, but in a good way, I think. And this thread has got to be onto something!

I had 3 distinct physical acts that I've used throughout my life. The physical acts only changed because I had to conform to a more age appropriate activity as I grew older. When I switched physcial acts, I can see now that there was a distinct period of 'discomfort' or not being able to DD in depth or not getting the same level of satisfaction from it. This period probably lasted less than a month before I became accomadated to the new motion.

As a child, I would swing on a swingset for about 15 - 30 minutes 2-3 times a day. I started at the age of 4.

As a teenager, 12-17 years, I jumped on a trampoline 3-4 times a day, for about 20-40 minutes.

As an adult, I pace, usually while listening to music. The increments are much shorter, 5-15 minutes, but there are much more of them.

During all these physical acts, I would (and still do) verbalize quietly to myself. Not the whole conversations, only some dialouge, but enough that if someone were to sneak up on me, they'd think I was crazy. Music also has played a constant theme; as a child, I'd used music to DD if I was in a position where I couldn't swing or jump.

[Laurel]

I can't believe I wrote that so candidly! My hands are shaking, you'd think I just confessed to being an alien or something.

[Mohsin Kazi]

LoL to that , and yes you are an alien , WE ALL ARE :D ,Cheers .

[J Peters]

Laurel, your courageous "confession" really hit home for me, thank you for sharing it. I, too, have had to adapt my dd movements to different situations throughout my life, not only according to age, but according to how much space and how much privacy I had in the various houses and apartments I've lived in. 

Also, I totally get your reaction - reading that Yahoo! article a few days ago, and through it, finding this website, made me break out into a cold sweat. There's something both unsettling and relieving about finding out how many other people have this issue, and then actually admitting - in public (albeit anonymously) - that you've been doing it for decades. 

[Angy B]

I totally agree with u J Peters, I felt exactly the same

[Royann]

I have Dermatillomania (picking at the skin on the sides of my thumbs) which after finding MD, I realized they both came on around the same time. Now I'm thinking that the picking at my thumbs was my "movement" that came with MD. It makes me feel slightly less crazy, but my doctor wants me to see a psychologist because of the Dermatillomania so I'm debating whether I should tell her about the MD or not. I can't imagine that it would help much. I can't seem to fathom how you would stop day dreaming. I love reading and writing more than anything and that is a form of DDing to me and I don't think I can give those up. If I somehow got DD out of my head constantly, I think they would come right back as soon as I read a book.

[betti Chapman]

I pace or at least move around some of the time...but I can also be still.  I have a specific hand movement I do that now people have caught me doing and asked me about and I haven't really had an answer for them.

[Mohsin Kazi]

 There's something both unsettling and relieving about finding out how many other people have this issue, and then actually admitting - in public (albeit anonymously) - that you've been doing it for decades.

So So True.I couldn't have described it in a better way how I felt when I first found out.

J Peters said:

Laurel, your courageous "confession" really hit home for me, thank you for sharing it. I, too, have had to adapt my dd movements to different situations throughout my life, not only according to age, but according to how much space and how much privacy I had in the various houses and apartments I've lived in. 

Also, I totally get your reaction - reading that Yahoo! article a few days ago, and through it, finding this website, made me break out into a cold sweat. There's something both unsettling and relieving about finding out how many other people have this issue, and then actually admitting - in public (albeit anonymously) - that you've been doing it for decades. 

[Mohsin Kazi]

God willing we will  find one together .

SwanInTheWater said:

Sorry I don't have any theories by the way. I would really like to know myself.