Where wild minds come to rest
Day 1 - I've been Maladaptive Daydreaming for over four years now, and I know that it's time to stop. I've recently been able to improve my life, but am facing some obstacles right now and want to clear my mind and focus on improvement. Today I spent a huge amount of time in depression and daydreaming, trying to escape my current circumstances and overlooking all the blessings in my life. I truly believe that all our lives have so much value, value beyond our imagination, and that we should try our hardest to recognize that value. So right now, I will take small steps, starting off by forgiving myself for all the mistakes I have made, and calmly take on whatever I need to do.
That's awesome! I'm in the same boat, it can be so hard to resist.
Ulaan Gom said:
Day 3 - I just woke up and feel the tide of MD approach in my mind. However, I must push against it and give my real life my absolute best effort. That will be my main hope of making significant strides towards overcoming MD and focusing my real life on the person I want to be. There are so many decisions to make and paths I can possibly go, and now I just have to keep my eyes and mind open and be open to those paths. I think the main step I'll need to focus on is how to stop bringing in daydreams whenever I try to become motivated or do something big, and instead focus on a vision that I believe I can accomplish and go after that larger vision.
I try to not resist it, but it's actually hard. I don't have the most exciting life ever, so I feel like escaping.
Interacting with fantasies. Daydreaming is when your dosing off to sleep and dazed out in another world.
Fantasizing is when your sharply awake and alert with what's going on, but you got the feeling some fictional entity is always by your side and talking to you under any circumstance. Kind of like Happy!
I often feel whenever I bicker, shout or curse it's at a fictional person, not a real life person. I can tell, because everybody real switches their heads at me or asks me who I'm talking to.
Yeah interacting with fantasies seems like the better definition. Interacting on such a deep level that you can see and actually feel everything as if it were real, yet at the same time knowing it's not real. I describe it like having a foot in both worlds.
I just about got over my battle with mdd, but it did a sum of damage to my life. It used to make me happy in mind, but it eventually gave me a rutty future. I'm glad I stopped when I did. Others have easily discovered me doing mdd, simply due to not being able to communicate and their reactions were memorable. Kind of makes me sick to think.
You're making great progress. I'm happy for you, just take it one day at a time like you are, and don't beat yourself up.
Ulaan Gom said:
Day 3 - Today was a fairly relaxing day overall. I definitely think that getting plenty of sleep last night helped tremendously with calming my mental state. I did feel a significant degree of control over my mind. Also, I noticed one MD episode today where I had a fairly compelling daydream, one that is usually hard to step back from. However, after a few repeated and concentrated attempts, I was able to step back from the daydream and come back to my current situation. I think journaling and really making a conscious effort towards curbing MD has definitely been helpful these last few days.