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Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
I constantly freeze
I stopped being active with maladaptive daydreaming years back. I have crucial responsibilities, try to stay away and concentrate, but notice that I suddenly wonder off and my eyes go dazed for a minute or so. This happens when I'm chill and during an stress-free time. Family and friends have made remarks that I look like my mind is somewhere else. I'm not sure though, it's more like I zone out. I'm trying to seek employment, but so afraid that when I start a new gig, someone will notice my eyes! Maybe even my frozen state. Unless the job is remote.
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Permalink Reply by Jessica Ballantyne on
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LOL. When we started talking I thought you were a young lady.
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God. My dad has a bone to pick with me. We have weekly chats about where I'm at, my progress. I always tell him I'm doing everything I can be up to par with employment. The job market is slow, for some unexplained reason. So I have to contact all the private and government agencies, talk to all the recruiters and headhunters. Make lots of noise. Dad is getting back to me in a week for updates on what I did. It seems, applying is not getting me far.
I don't understand today's society. I really don't. What happened? I think it's odd you apply for anything, and it's not that easy to get attention. In the old days, that wasn't so hard.
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On a personal note, I'm thinking I would've been much better off, if I hadn't started MD in the first place.
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I stopped MD, I'm fine now. But it's like, I wasn't ever paying attention, or I didn't care, because I lived in my head. And everything almost went downhill.
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I made many mistakes in my life, which I'll certainly try not to do again. I should've done everything vice versa, but I was stubborn.
Are you a morning person? I find it harder to get flowing at 8:00 am than I do at noon. I find getting up hurts. Of course I'm years older than you.
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I looked at my peers and friends, and they are actually living their lives. They look so awesome on social media.
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Yes, I know. That's just life for everybody. If I put glitzy pictures of myself on Facebook, users would think I'm happy go lucky. But that's a big lie. So good point.
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Still, I feel that I went overboard with MD when I was young. I'm perfectly aware it was a big mistake, and have to own up to it. I too wouldn't have had the guts to share with anybody on social media that I committed to MD. You can only imagine the reactions and responses. That just doesn't look cool to your friends on Facebook.
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True, very true
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It's funny, you think Maladaptive daydreaming will help you out—when really—it ruins everything. And makes you feel worse, in real life.
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I don't hang out so much. If ever I'm in a crowd once again, they start to comment and even look at me intently. They think I'm socially awkward everywhere. It's just, I don't talk so much, I'm extremely quiet, and my face is deadpan. Then they notice my eyes look kind of far away. Next thing I know, I could get manipulated, or put on the spot. Then if I do something dumb, which could've easily been prevented....they look at me like I got two heads and a tale.
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It's like I had a tough time finding my own alliance. I was so different compared to everyone I've ever met. Our personalities just clashed. But I didn't look hard enough to find a better crowd, because I was so busy dwelling in my maladaptive daydreaming, time just went by, and I realized I still didn't solve my social problems.
I can't really change who I am—I'm ME as it stands. I came into the world this way. I think my issue is that I won't pay attention to whose there, and communicate with them. I think I lost a social life this way. -
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