I had MD almost completely under control, or so I thought. I started therapy, addressed the things in my life that made me fantasize, gained some self-esteem, and I started spending my days in the real world instead of the fanstay one. I only daydreamt when I was bored, but I was able to go back to reality without problems. I really thought I was over it.

But now with COVID I've been working from home since March. My friends have left the city I live in, because they're working from their parents' home. I don't see my coworkers anymore, obviously -even though we have online meetings, it's not really the same. I can't visit my family, because they live in a different city, and here in Spain it's forbidden to go to another state. (I'm not criticizing it, I understand we're in the middle of a pandemic, I'm just saying what it is). 

So I feel isolated again, and I have started daydreaming again. I feel so bad about it, just when I thought I had it under control. Anyone else has experienced a worsening of their condition because of Covid? Let's chat about it! 

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Hi Ariane,

Same here! I've only recently began monitoring my MD and trying to keep the time I spend daydreaming to a minimum, but like you said, with chronic depression it can be challenging to stay motivated to quit. I'm a bit bipolar, so when I have good weeks I'm motivated and excited to improve my life and quit daydreaming, but when bad weeks come around, I fall hard back into MD. It feels like I constantly take one step forward and two steps back. But like you said, baby steps are the key to success! I remind myself of that every day.

Ariane said:

Hi Melanie,

I must say it's only recently that I have been able to "keep" my MD somewhat in check. And of course, there are still times when I go into MD without realizing it (music is an especially strong trigger for me). Chronic depression + MD is a deadly ennemy of getting tasks done lol! I still have a long road ahead of me! But it's not hopeless. We've got this, baby steps! :) 

Melanie said:

Ariane,

Your post was reassuring! It's nice to think that I might return to how I was doing before the pandemic. It's awesome that you're able to control when you do and don't MD. I hope to have that self-control and ability to focus someday!

I can imagine for a lot of people, there have been a shift in habits. Like most people who MD, I can do it anywhere, the trick was enjoying it more if I could have privacy. Even when I did work in an office, if I had some alone-time then that alone would trigger me to start daydreaming.

Blanca Margatroid said:

Hi Theaxe, so then you are really used to work from home! In my case we went from going to the office everyday to work from home and never see my colleagues again in months. It was a huge and sudden change.

Yeah that's the problem, at least during this whole covid crisis.  I can't meet with anyone in person and most of the stuff I would normally be doing is being put off until Spring.  So I spend a lot of time sitting in front of the computer screen.  I kind of spread my workload out so I don't run out of projects, but that means some down time when I finish one project and I am waiting to start the next, but at not too fast a pace.  LOL  That sounds horrible, but it's this stupid virus thing that has everything shut down or slowed down.  

Blanca Margatroid said:

Mistgod, I totally hear you. I also think that sometimes the office world can be very cold and fake, so it makes us more prone to go to our inner fantasy world even in work hours. I once had a job where nobody cared about me because I was just an intern, so as you explained I spent the whole day in front of the computer daydreaming, because the job itself didn't need much concentration. Maybe it's also what happens to you, that the job isn't very stimulating?

Yes! I am 36 and have been a daydreamer or, "pretender," as I used to call it, since childhood. For the past six years, though, I had it under control and it wasn't taking over my life as much. The pandemic for sure has increased my time spent daydreaming. Old themes of my day dreams having come back. I've just been allowing myself to enjoy them rather than distress about them. They must be helping me to cope in this new world.

It's more or less the same amount for me too. While commuting to work I often caught my self daydreaming after long intervals. When I'm at home I catch myself more frequently and more often.

Now that we're alone, maybe we're just getting more aware about how often we DD? Just an assumption. 

Yes, Covid isolation has caused me to even stop trying to control it. I am retired and live alone. My family does phone, and I have zoom calls with friends but I have many many hours to myself and the daydreaming has most emphatically gotten worse and I no longer have any incentive to rein it in. I think the worst part is that I’m not sleeping enough because I’m laying in bed daydreaming. I’m glad you posted this.

Exactly, it is the same for me!

I enjoy my daydreams when they don't take such a big amount of time in my everyday life. When I can't even concentrate in work, or when I daydream during a phone call or such, that's when I start to worry.

Dreamer said:

Yes! I am 36 and have been a daydreamer or, "pretender," as I used to call it, since childhood. For the past six years, though, I had it under control and it wasn't taking over my life as much. The pandemic for sure has increased my time spent daydreaming. Old themes of my day dreams having come back. I've just been allowing myself to enjoy them rather than distress about them. They must be helping me to cope in this new world.

HI Cane,

so then you're not teleworking I assume. Yeah, commute to work usually was a time to daydream for me too.

Maybe we are more aware, especially now that we know what MD is. But I certainly know that when I had more "social life" (just by going to work, or the gym, or whatever) I kept the daydreams to a minimum.

Cane said:

It's more or less the same amount for me too. While commuting to work I often caught my self daydreaming after long intervals. When I'm at home I catch myself more frequently and more often.

Now that we're alone, maybe we're just getting more aware about how often we DD? Just an assumption. 

Martha, I'm sorry you're feeling this way. I can totally get why we wouldn't even try to stop daydreaming since the news seem to get worse everyday. At least you have family and friends to count on. And yeah, sleepless nights are also a given.

I don't know if this helps but I found that writing in this forum and getting in touch with you guys also helped me a little.

Martha McCulloch said:

Yes, Covid isolation has caused me to even stop trying to control it. I am retired and live alone. My family does phone, and I have zoom calls with friends but I have many many hours to myself and the daydreaming has most emphatically gotten worse and I no longer have any incentive to rein it in. I think the worst part is that I’m not sleeping enough because I’m laying in bed daydreaming. I’m glad you posted this.

Actually I have put the pandemic into my daydreams. I might change it a bit or something but its in there. I live alone so it gives me company. 

Oh gosh! I couldn't imagine having MD and not living alone!
I find the pandemic has made it more socially acceptable to stay home and get nothing done.

I know what you mean. 

Liz said:

Oh gosh! I couldn't imagine having MD and not living alone!
I find the pandemic has made it more socially acceptable to stay home and get nothing done.

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