I've scheduled an appointment with a therapist

[nelson]

The appointment is for tomorrow afternoon. I've printed up a copy of Dr Cynthias report (I had to go to the library to do this since I can't get online at home, plus I don't have a printer). And I'm going to take that report with me. I'm hoping he can help me with my MDD and my depression as well as whatever mental and emotional problems I may have.

[roxanne]

Anxious to hear how your session went today.

[nelson]

I don't think the session went well today. The therapist telling ne he doesn't know what to do for me. I asked him if he read the article I handed him last week. He did, and all he said about it was "interesting".

He gave me a list of some sort of activity coordinators, telling me that they'll help me
find something better to help occupy my time. He admitted that it may he a waste of time, but I might as well give it a try to see where it goes.

I really don't think todays session went anywhere. We didn't at all get into daydreaming. Except to say how I daydreamed about moving out of my mothers house.

I go back again next week.





roxanne said:

Anxious to hear how your session went today.

[roxanne]

I would be really honest with him next week - maybe have a sort of script ready - and tell him how much a part of your life it really is.  I timed myself one day to find that I DD'ed for 12 hours - a lot of that happens concurrently with other things, but it is indeed a major issue in my life.   And I am not bored.  See if he is willing to reconsider the role this plays in your life.  If not, I would really move on.  I've been a therapist many years, and talked to other therapists about this very point (without mentioning the MD) and they also agreed.  A therapist has to be a good fit.  You can certainly disagree with a therapist on some issues & continue to work well together, and sometimes a fit develops that doesn't seem likely.  So it IS a judgement call.  But I wouldn't stay a long time with some one who didn't take the MD seriously.  Just my opinion.  You are the best judge.

[Wish Upon A Wish]

I know it's not the same, but if you don't have the money for lessons, you could try getting a good music book and teaching yourself.

 

 And I'm not really a talkative person either, I rarely talk to my friends out of school if they don't text or call me first, even though I do love being with them, and I haven't been on Facebook for months, or another site where I had some really good friends, Fairies/Vampires, (I know it sounds a bit stupid, but there are some amazing people on there). 

nelson said:

I rarely speak with my dad. It's not out of animosity or anything like that. It's just that I'm not a talkative person, as I don't care for long conversations on the phone with anybody. I'm not doing anything to socialize. I'm just not a social person offline. It's very awkward for me to socialize. I'm basically inept in that department. Getting out of the house, that's no problem. I do that from time to time just to get away from my family.

I'm not saying money is my main issue, but a lack of it sure does hinder me from moving forward in ways I want in my life. For example, its a lack of money that prevents me from getting piano lessons. Money isn't the answer to what ails me, but it sure would help me in moving forward in a hurry.

What's my main issue? Yes, I feel that MDD has been what has preventing me from accomplishing more as I much preferred daydreaming to leaving my house and doing something with my life. I just chose to daydream it away. When I look back on part of it, for example in my 20s, I didnt want to just go out and get a job. I didn't want to face the real world with its real problems. And I KNEW that I just wouldn't be able to function amongst coworkers. Same as I couldn't function amongst fellow students in high school. Indeed, when I finally got jobs, I didn't bother socializing with my coworkers. I did my job, and got out of there. I'm not interested in a personal social relationship with them. I would like to have a romantic relationship. I'm just not ready for that, mentally and financially.




Roger Lyda said:

How often do you speak with your dad, Nelson?

I ask because you need to be developing, nurturing, maintaining, healthy relationships with people. Online friends are all well and good, but you need to venture out of the house and socialize more.

What else are you doing to socialize?

Regardless of how well you like this therapist, or if you don't like him, you can't wager your success or lack of success on his opinion of MD.  Sure, you may find you are better suited to work with a different therapist.  But regardless of how good a therapist may be, you are going to have to put forth effort yourself. You will have to start making basic changes to improve your life.

You are an intelligent guy who has researched a lot about mental conditions.

Do you feel MD is the main thing preventing you from accomplishing more with your life (and don't bother saying money is your main problem)?  I'm talking about your mental and emotional well-being.

What is the main issue?

[Wish Upon A Wish]

Oh, and I told my doc about it (because I'd gone along earlier for minor depression, turns out I had glandular fever and didn't know it, but it was a follow-up appointment anyway) and he took the papers home that I'd brought him to read through properly. He said that it was interesting, sounds very real, and that I probably have it. He did ask about treatments, but seeing as I'd rather avoid drugs and he'd rather avoid prescribing them, it worked out well. Though if I feel I really should try them next year, I'll ask. 

[Aquarius]

I agree with Roger. You should try out the therapist's suggestions. You also need to understand that you will need to bond with your therapist, meaning give the therapy a little more time before you decide. He read the report you gave him, that's a good sign, he didnt say that it was insignificant. Maybe he's trying to understand for you now. You could & should tell him that you would like to talk about the subjects of your MDs.

Hang in there Nelson.