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Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
im not daydreaming as much as i was a few weeks ago
As I said previously in this thread:
https://wildminds.ning.com/forum/topics/my-fantasy-world-unhappily-...
I suffered a crash when a hint of reality intruded my fantasies. Try as I might, I couldn't repair the damage done to my daydreaming world. On top of that, on Christmas day my computer suffered a breakdown, preventing me from getting online. It turned out to be a blessing in disguise. As it prevented me from doing what I normally do all day, everyday: seek out pics and video that fuel my MDD.
I decided to use the time offline to clean my filthy, cluttered room. It's a huge job, but I'm making progress. I've made a huge dent in the mess and I've still got a lot more to clean up. Today alone I've tossed out about 5 or 6 huge garbage bags worth of mess and an old broken lamp and a years old broken fan. In the meantime, I've found that while cleaning my room, I'm not daydreaming. I'm still depressed, but not nearly as much as before.
When I take a break, oh boy, the boredom sets in and I start daydreaming, or at least try to, and I can feel my heavy depression creeping back to get a real good hold of me. When I go back to cleaning up, the depression and daydreaming recedes, and I occasionally feel...well, not GREAT. Not even GOOD, but at least I feel "ok".
I'm hoping to find more activities that will make me feel good, make my depression and daydreaming go away more.
As for my computer, I THINK I've got the problem licked. However, I'm not in a rush to take the final steps to repair it as of yet. Because I just know that if and when I've fixed it, I'm just going to revert to my old behavior of wasting my time sitting in front of it all day long, doing nothing really productive except to fuel my daydreaming more. So I'm not in any rush to fix it. When I visit the internet through my cell phone, I realize how few websites I actually visit. And how often I surfed the same pages on the same few sites. I'm beginning to realize that I didnt need to go on the computer as often as I once did. I REALLY NEED to get out there in the real world and GET A LIFE of some sort, somehow. It won't happen overnight as it will take me some time to figure out what I need to do and then find ways to do it. I'm really looking forward to doing something productive (what that is, I do not know yet), something I can enjoy, with my life instead of vegetating in front of my computer and tv in my room.
It took that crash of my several years long daydream as well as the crash of my computer to finally look for me to look for NEW avenues to better improve myself and my life.
https://wildminds.ning.com/forum/topics/my-fantasy-world-unhappily-...
I suffered a crash when a hint of reality intruded my fantasies. Try as I might, I couldn't repair the damage done to my daydreaming world. On top of that, on Christmas day my computer suffered a breakdown, preventing me from getting online. It turned out to be a blessing in disguise. As it prevented me from doing what I normally do all day, everyday: seek out pics and video that fuel my MDD.
I decided to use the time offline to clean my filthy, cluttered room. It's a huge job, but I'm making progress. I've made a huge dent in the mess and I've still got a lot more to clean up. Today alone I've tossed out about 5 or 6 huge garbage bags worth of mess and an old broken lamp and a years old broken fan. In the meantime, I've found that while cleaning my room, I'm not daydreaming. I'm still depressed, but not nearly as much as before.
When I take a break, oh boy, the boredom sets in and I start daydreaming, or at least try to, and I can feel my heavy depression creeping back to get a real good hold of me. When I go back to cleaning up, the depression and daydreaming recedes, and I occasionally feel...well, not GREAT. Not even GOOD, but at least I feel "ok".
I'm hoping to find more activities that will make me feel good, make my depression and daydreaming go away more.
As for my computer, I THINK I've got the problem licked. However, I'm not in a rush to take the final steps to repair it as of yet. Because I just know that if and when I've fixed it, I'm just going to revert to my old behavior of wasting my time sitting in front of it all day long, doing nothing really productive except to fuel my daydreaming more. So I'm not in any rush to fix it. When I visit the internet through my cell phone, I realize how few websites I actually visit. And how often I surfed the same pages on the same few sites. I'm beginning to realize that I didnt need to go on the computer as often as I once did. I REALLY NEED to get out there in the real world and GET A LIFE of some sort, somehow. It won't happen overnight as it will take me some time to figure out what I need to do and then find ways to do it. I'm really looking forward to doing something productive (what that is, I do not know yet), something I can enjoy, with my life instead of vegetating in front of my computer and tv in my room.
It took that crash of my several years long daydream as well as the crash of my computer to finally look for me to look for NEW avenues to better improve myself and my life.
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They have had nothing to say about me cleaning my room. Amazingly nothing at all. As for going to a therapist, they dont know about it. I havent told them about it. I really dont want to tell them anything. We're pretty much a dysfunctional family. Unlike normal, happy families, we dont share our thoughts, hopes, dreams, feelings, emotions, etc with each other.
Roger Lyda said:Who do your mom and brother have to say about you cleaning your room and going to a therapist?
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