as time goes by...

[Divinity]

Its been awhile since i last posted anything, but i think its time to post a gen because some thing seem to have change. I think that as time goes by i seem to see the world a lot def rent, than what i thought it was. I feel lost even is i type these words, but i feel i need to express my self in some way. It all started when i started college, the class start and end and all i can think of is "why am i doing this? is there a point to all this? who am i trying to impress?" and so on. since i have MD i daydream allot, but i am one of the luck few who can and will control it. i will daydream of what i am doing and how pointless it seems to me. I would love to have an amazing and exciting life, but the true is i don't. i wish my life was like the ones i daydream of. MD makes me see what no one should see, making me live my life and yet making me crave the amazing  daydreamed life i created. i feel trapped here, in this life(don't worry i am not suicidal, just saying) . I'm not really shore of what to say or do, so here's my story. whats yours?

 

 

 

 

thanks for reading :)

[J Noland]

Hello bmg. I can relate to what you're saying. And the double life sort of aspect is depressing for me at times. I get into some existential funks trying to find a reason to try to achieve anything in real life. When my MD'ing starts to depress me I decide to try and live a proper life with real people but that isn't really what I want either. I want one of my dd's to just start happening. I want my characters to start showing up one by one and for the events to unfold just as I imagined they would. I guess there would be a choice given to me at some point where I would have to decide to keep the dd life or go back to the real life. This is a choice I make in a way when I have to stop a dd to go about real world business. People spend their lives doing all kinds of silly things, in the end it's what made them happiest that matters. So I think I'll keep the dd's and enjoy the rush of a really powerful one when it happens.

J

[Divinity]

yeah, i made a video about this site on YouTube http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=btHiHtLl3Ek . i got bored so i wonted to start to make videos. i will probable try to keep making them and let more people know about this site.

[greyartist]

I can also relate. I find myself saying that allot. "I don't belong here." A councilor told me to practice telling myself the oposite. Feels really strange saying "this is my life and thos is where I belong" when I feel so much more comfortable in the DD world.