I constantly freeze

[Jessica Ballantyne]

I stopped being active with maladaptive daydreaming years back. I have crucial responsibilities, try to stay away and concentrate, but notice that I suddenly wonder off and my eyes go dazed for a minute or so. This happens when I'm chill and during an stress-free time. Family and friends have made remarks that I look like my mind is somewhere else. I'm not sure though, it's more like I zone out. I'm trying to seek employment, but so afraid that when I start a new gig, someone will notice my eyes! Maybe even my frozen state. Unless the job is remote. 

[Mina]

Social media isn't somthing you use a references because people would only post yhe beautiful part believe me every body has his shate of problems

[Jessica Ballantyne]

Yes, I know. That's just life for everybody. If I put glitzy pictures of myself on Facebook, users would think I'm happy go lucky. But that's a big lie. So good point. 

[Mina]

Exactly i myself wouldn't talk about MD forbexample in social media

[Jessica Ballantyne]

Still, I feel that I went overboard with MD when I was young. I'm perfectly aware it was a big mistake, and have to own up to it. I too wouldn't have had the guts to share with anybody on social media that I committed to MD. You can only imagine the reactions and responses. That just doesn't look cool to your friends on Facebook. 

[Mina]

yes beside people wouldn't understand it anyway and they will judge any way i am thankful that i deleted all my social media because of that it's very toxic for me and it's fake that's not how relationship should be if i want to have quality time with my friend i would rather do it physically rather than using chat if i want to celebrate his birthday i would buy a gift and give it to him in his birthday if he is in crisis i would be with him not just putting a sad face on a post 

[Jessica Ballantyne]

True, very true

[Jessica Ballantyne]

It's funny, you think Maladaptive daydreaming will help you out—when really—it ruins everything. And makes you feel worse, in real life. 

[Jessica Ballantyne]

I don't hang out so much. If ever I'm in a crowd once again, they start to comment and even look at me intently. They think I'm socially awkward everywhere. It's just, I don't talk so much, I'm extremely quiet, and my face is deadpan. Then they notice my eyes look kind of far away. Next thing I know, I could get manipulated, or put on the spot. Then if I do something dumb, which could've easily been prevented....they look at me like I got two heads and a tale. 

[Mina]

yes totally agree

[Jessica Ballantyne]

It's like I had a tough time finding my own alliance. I was so different compared to everyone I've ever met. Our personalities just clashed. But I didn't look hard enough to find a better crowd, because I was so busy dwelling in my maladaptive daydreaming, time just went by, and I realized I still didn't solve my social problems. 

I can't really change who I am—I'm ME as it stands. I came into the world this way. I think my issue is that I won't pay attention to whose there, and communicate with them. I think I lost a social life this way. 

[Mina]

i disagree every thing is changeable as long you alive thee is no such thing as "this who i am" it the situation isn't improving it's because there something wrong in the solution we need to find what's wrong and do it again in regard the relationship i was writing article about that you w0ould be surprised to know that a lot of people like that it's just like you said we need the right alliance for i am trying to be bold to be more reactive i will screw things up that's would normal but eventually i would learn that the only way i would change is by practice