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[Leoni]

I’m 16 and I have been living with maladaptive daydreaming since I was nine, it all started when u got sexu@lly @ssulted by my dad from the age of 6-12, there are certain triggers to it and most of the time I get angry by these triggers and I scream not nothing comes out, it takes away all my negative energy but I did something similar when I was younger where I was tense up my whole body and shake to get rid of the energy, my md starts at night and I have this whole story to it and I would stay awake for hours whispering to myself and crying because I am trapped in this world, sometimes it’s a nice story line and I feel safe in my world but when I watch films sometimes the story line of the film goes into my story and messes up the calm environment I made for myself, the main thing that shows us when I start this is my dad, i think in my mind I’m trying to make things right and to understand what happened but it do get embarrassed about my md and I told my mum about it and I could tell she didn’t understand and thinks that I’m being childish or whatever but I know that my inner child is broken but I don’t know how to fix her just yet, I do sometimes feel like I’m crazy but seeing these comments makes me feel a little more sane, I’m not sure how to stop these episodes though, they are so frequent and it’s tiring but I don’t know how to explain to somebody how I’m feeling because I’m so embarrassed and I don’t want people to laugh or judge.

[Leoni]

Yeah I like to listen to music to calm me down

[Kiruba Victor]

I see. Similar here too. I have comfort people around me. And music drives my daydreams often. Mostly these days, dreams are of redemption. Like getting back from something hurtful

[Leoni]

It’s almost like a story, it progresses and if I watch a movie that movie will be interpreted into the storyline, my place where I am currently in the episode is my safe place and the people around me are my comfort people

[Kiruba Victor]

Amazing. I'm from India. I'm curious. Tell me about the storylines of your daydreams. If you're comfortable, of course.

[Leoni]

Wales

[Kiruba Victor]

That's good. Where are you from, by the way? I'm curious.

[Leoni]

School is back to normal now so I go normally and just get on with my lessons

[Kiruba Victor]

Same here. I get overwhelmed often, especially at the mention of overtime and targets in my line of work. And yeah, I understand how it feels. There will always be that one rude fellow who thinks he's above everyone, which is annoying. So you attend classes everyday virtually or offline?

[Leoni]

Well being a waitress is quite hard because you do get some rude people and I do feel very overwhelmed sometimes. School is okay for me as I don’t have any exams until next year because it’s all course work based but once again I do get very overwhelmed sometimes and I stress easily

[Kiruba Victor]

Wow, that's juggling a lot of things. I'm working in marketing for an educational company and I'm finding it hectic XD. How are you handling school and work?