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My life, my maladaptive daydreaming

Hello everyone,

It's been a long while since I posted on here (a few years I think) but more recently I have become acutely 'aware' of my condition (whether MD or something else?) or perhaps it has just increased over time.
Here is a little of what I mean

For as long as I can remember I have what I suspect is MD but with some differences to what I have read online. I know symptoms can be different for everyone so bear with me.

I have intense daydreams but the episodes only last for a few seconds (probably 30 seconds or so if no-one is around) to less than 10 seconds if not alone. Sometimes I can have lots of 'little bursts' in a day (perhaps minimum of 50+ or so) to hardly anything at all. It's not for hours at a time & I certainly have no desire to continue with any daydreaming.

I can more or less control my body movements when people are around to them thinking a am cold or just moving around in my chair. If I am on my own, particularly just before having a shower as an example, I can twist & turn & dance around like I am in a high energy nightclub. I can often 'come out' of my daydream in a sweat with my heart beating away as though I have had a full on gym session.

I find I have my MD more when I am tired & a good burst tends to wake me up but can leave me with a slight headache.

Apart from the water flowing from a shower, I can't really say what triggers the MD. Anything really. My MD sometimes tends to involve violent thoughts but other times it is just very stupid.

Thank you for reading.

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Permalink Reply by Jessica Ballantyne on May 31, 2020 at 5:49pm

I've was an MD'er since I was 12, but it's dissolving due to real world cares. I still cackle with laughter and talk to myself at moments. My dad works at home, as I do, and he asks "what so funny" or "I thought you were on the phone."

Last Christmas, my family and I saw A Christmas Carol with a favourite hollywood legend playing Scrooge. I actually had a crush on the actor—but for five months. He's all I ever thought when working, eating and sleeping or doing anything. I figured maybe I was a little too obsessed. I guess, his very image turned me on during this terrible world pandemic. I wasn't able to date or see anybody, so I got a bit lonely.