Maladaptive Daydreaming: where wild minds come to rest
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I've never played that game, but I used to create fake social media accounts for my alter ego and interacted with people I/we met online that way. I've stopped because I felt so guilty pretending to be someone I'm not to everyone I met online, and I ran out of excuses as to why my alter ego couldn't give them his phone number or address or meet up in person.
Back before social media, msn messenger and people having mobiles, I used to use chat rooms as my alter egos. This was my guilty pleasure, that was, until one day my friend said she was going to meet me online to chat after school. I wasn't thinking and used my fake (obviously male) name and started talking to her, and she asked why, so I told her that it was just a character I made up. She thought it was funny so for about a month we'd both get on to this chat site and I would be my alter ego, different speech patterns and personality and all. One day at school we were talking about it and she said it was funny but said 'ok, so who is xxx then?' and I explained he was a made up character, and she said 'He's not even real.' I felt so stupid and guilty I haven't done it since.
I would always play video games and make the characters my characters. But I also used to also play video games and make the villains/opposing teams etc people at school/work that I hated.
Yes, back in the days of dial up AOL I/we used chat rooms too. Once I realized I could manifest my alter ego online and I could "make him real" it started a slippery slope for me. I invented all sorts of back story for him and life events that never actually happened, but in my head, they were all as real as my own life. And people believed he was a real person. I spent hours upon hours in instant messages with people, as him. I still have his facebook account active but I've/we've stopped posting and communicating on it, which has led to his friends wondering if he's ok. I feel so guilty and I know I should just delete the account, but I hesitate in case I should feel the compulsion to start up again. But after all this time quiet I can't figure out how to have him "come back" without some further elaborate lie. It's not like I can admit the truth to these people, "Hi, I'm not actually X, I'm a girl who made him up and has led you to believe the person you've been communicating with all these years is real, but he's not." I'm sure that would go over well.
Rose said:
Back before social media, msn messenger and people having mobiles, I used to use chat rooms as my alter egos. This was my guilty pleasure, that was, until one day my friend said she was going to meet me online to chat after school. I wasn't thinking and used my fake (obviously male) name and started talking to her, and she asked why, so I told her that it was just a character I made up. She thought it was funny so for about a month we'd both get on to this chat site and I would be my alter ego, different speech patterns and personality and all. One day at school we were talking about it and she said it was funny but said 'ok, so who is xxx then?' and I explained he was a made up character, and she said 'He's not even real.' I felt so stupid and guilty I haven't done it since.
I would always play video games and make the characters my characters. But I also used to also play video games and make the villains/opposing teams etc people at school/work that I hated.
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