Anxiety

[Stasia OBrien]

Hey all,

So, My MDD involves male celebs  - part of my MDD is making my self a character in the celebs' tv show/film, and the other part is being me, the actress, and having a relationship with them.

When the reality that they have started dating someone in real life is introduced to me, it triggers my depression but it also leaves me in this constant state of anxiety that I cannot control. It's hard for me to calm down and want to focus on anything at all - including work and other distractions that I normally would like.

Does anyone get anxious when their fantasy world and the real world conflict? I try to forget the reality and "pretend" something different is true in my fantasy world but it doesn't work - I need for them to be single in their real life or it physically hurts.

Does anyone take medication for anxiety as it relates to your MDD?  Like Valium or something? Does it help?

[Stasia OBrien]

Hi Cann C!!!

I HATE it so much. All I ant to do is control it b/c it's ridiculous but I can't. Sigh.

Have you tried other ways to cope then?

[Stasia OBrien]

Yeah, I feel the same way - in fact, I am pretty sure that if I met the celebs in real life, I wouldn't want anything to do with them - ha ha!

It doesn't help though.

I try to tell myself the same things but it doesn't help - I think I am still sooooo addicted to it.

Hopefully, my therapist will help me as we continue to work on it.

Until then, its pure misery non-stop.

[Stasia OBrien]

Me too! I hate going through this. I try so hard to make it stop and I just can't.

[Aj]

I totally relate to this; I get extremely anxious and depressed whenever the real world "conflicts" with my MDD. Sometimes it even leads to suicidal ideation, which obviously sucks. I take Klonopin sometimes and that helps a little bit. The only medication that completely got rid of my MDD, though, was the antipsychotic Latuda. However, I quickly realized that the side effects were too much and that I missed the "good" parts of MDD. So now I'm just trying to tackle the bad parts with therapy. Lately I've been trying Acceptance and Commitment Therapy, which focuses on mindfulness, and it's helped quite a bit. 

[OhMyMagenta]

This is the main reason why I don't DD about real people/celebrities; it's too upsetting when reality steps in. I DD about characters in TV/film, this way I can fairly easily adapt/change to my DD scenario. Many years ago, my DD love interest was a pro wrestler; he played a character but was still himself for the sport. Sadly, this man died in real life & I was crushed. I grieved as though I knew him & it hurt more than I anticipated. Since that time, I stick to fictional characters only.

[Stasia OBrien]

Yeah except this is just what my MDD has always been about so...can't change it. Wish I could!!!!

[Dan Pop]

I've generally stuck with fiction but for me unexpected changes just result in morphing a story or twerking it or seeing it in an alternate world, timeline