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[Lostone]

Hi everyone. I'm new to the forum and thought I'd introduce myself. I'm C.

It was hard for me to find out that my daydreaming was a psychological symptom. It broke my heart. I mean, I never really convinced myself that 'everybody did it' or that it was 'perfectly normal', but without really meaning to, I avoided this issue by never really talking to anyone about it. Part of me knew they wouldn't understand. I guess I just figured that my imagination was much more active than most peoples, and I considered that to be an asset. In some ways, I still think that. But I can't kid myself any longer, daydreaming has taken over my life.

This is the "solution" I've come up with. I'm not allowed to daydream during the day anymore. No more DDing whilst I'm sitting on the bus, or letting my mind wander whilst I'm doing the dishes. From now on, my daylight hours are dedicated entirely to work or socialising. Having said that, I've given myself permission to daydream as soon as I get into bed at night. And we're talking carte blanche here. I can dream whatever I like for however long I like, and I refuse to feel guilty about it. I find it helps me drift off to sleep anyway. And okay, so 'daydreaming' might not be the 'normal' thing to do, but the idea of being normal has never really appealed to me. Normal people are boring. I'd much rather be happy than normal.

 So I guess what I'm trying to say is that this forum has been a revelation to me. I never thought I'd meet people like me. I'm curious about each and every one of you. Is anyone else trying to find a balance like me, or is everyone going cold turkey? When did you first realise what you were different from everyone else? Is anyone here an artist, or a writer?

[Richard Quest]

I first realized that I might be different than the rest of my friends was around 5th grade. I spent far too much time in my daydreams. By then I had already filled a notebook with all my drawings (I'm the creative type). I haven't really told anyone about my habits, when they ask what I am drawing, I simply say "stuff" and close my notebook. I use my Daydreams to funnel into a creative power I use. It makes me daydream far less and I have thousands of pictures and paintings to show for it. (Just check my blog). 

Are you a writer or an artist? If so, this is the perfect place to share! :D

[Roel]

Elliminating this "disorder" never seemed like a good idea to me, I also wanted a balance. I wanted to live with it, not kill it.

I've had it my entire life. I realised it while I was watching a detective-show on tv. I noticed that the protagonist went to work, solved cases, went home, did some activities with her husband, went to sleep, and the cycle repeated itself. I thought to myself: "She has no life! All the time she is doing stuff, or socialising. She never does nothing, she never stops to think or dream like a normal person does!" Then it suddenly struck me. I suddenly realised that everyone did this. It would explain everything! I came up with the Idea that for normal people there was only one world: reality. I lived in hundreds of worlds, and that wasn't ordinary. I looked it up on the internet and after searching a long time I found this. I was very happy and relieved whene I found it. it answered a lot of questions that I had had my entire life :)

I want to be a writer, but I>'m still trying to make that dream come true ;)

[Lostone]

I'm a writer, but I used to draw a lot when I was younger. I found with drawing that I could be in a pretty much meditative state. I was constantly daydreaming whilst doing it. It was very calming.

I've always thought my daydreaming and my creative side were inexorably linked. I don't think I could have one without the other.

[Alison]

Hi, I'm also new here. I'm trying to deal with my MDD the same way as you - I allow myself to daydream before falling asleep and try to cut it off completely during the day (however, I don't always succeed).

It was not very long ago when I realised that it's a real problem. I mean I've had it since I was a child and I've always found it quite strange, but never realised how much it interferes with my social life. Now I understand that I should reduce it somehow.

And I'm very happy to find these website and see how people here help each other. I didn't know that this condition actually has a name and there are other people dealing with it. I was also surprised to learn that these repetitive movements like pacing, etc. are common for MDD, too, because that was what I considered the strangest thing about my DD.

As for the creative side, I also want to become a writer, but as Roel Van Rossen wrote, I'm still trying to make it come true. :)