Daydreaming changes mood and personality

[Heinriech Heisner]

The signs all took place over about a week:

This morning I awoke disgruntled. It took me another twenty minutes before I got out of bed. I was mentally in a low. I've been feeling extra tired lately. I've been listening to dark ambient music so I can daydream something sad.  Even though I usually like something upbeat, I've been having cravings for the opposite. I've become self-conscious and unsure of myself. I've begun worrying about life and my future. I'm thinking it might be because I am dehydrated -- that usually takes a toll on me if I'm not careful. Maybe if I just drink more water I will be fine...

 

I pause. I know there is something wrong. I've been through this before. All these signs are telling me something is wrong. These are the thoughts I use to have, but I am having them right now. I know it can be different; I was different last week and weeks before that. Then I remember how to snap out of it, but the cravings for dark music... No, I got to change the thought. I remember now. I got to think like I own the world, that I can be anything I want to. Suddenly the fog evaporates from around me and I am able to listen to my upbeat music and act with self-confidence and I am back to where I want to be.

 

My daydreams and thoughts directly correlate with each other. I've learned over the past year not to daydream dark/sad thoughts because I begin to feel that way in the real world. But once in a while, I have a desire to go there and I find myself in this depressive trance for about a week before I remember how to get back out of it. When I go there, everything about my personality changes in the real world.

 

I am wondering if anyone else experiences this?

[Nomad]

Yes, I used to go on these morbid jags where I would daydream about sad things happening to me and the feeling would stay with me. Like you, I only did this once in a while. I'm not sure why.