Seeing your Ideal self

[Vendetta_Crazzed]

I was out and about the other night at the bar just sitting by myself having a drink when i saw her... This girl walks in she was greeted by a huge group of friends and she looked like me. Not like ME but the me in my head!!! wtf!!!!! she was super fit and beautiful, with a very original, unique and outgoing personality. lots of people gathered around her and she seemed to be a regular. idk what it was but the way she walked the way she talked everything about her was what i wanted to be. I was absolutely OVERWHELMED with jealousy!  I's never felt like that before... not that jealous.... i felt angry even. at myself thinking "why isnt that me? what did i do wrong? why cant i ever be like that?? why her and not me??"  i probably watched her for a good portion of the night too. idk if she noticed but i was almost (creepy as it sounds) fascinated . I left the bar feeling pretty depressed. I'm sure this girl is normal, has everyday problems of her own and hew life is not perfect and she's probably not ALL i thought her out to be.. but i still cant get this jealousy out of my head.

How am i to deal with being, me? what would you do?

[ashlee]

thats happened to me! well, not my ideal self though. I was at a restaurant and I saw this little girl that looked IDENTICAL to one of my characters kids. She was probably 3 years old, and they had the same hair, face, they even dressed the same. I was so freaked out. Not to mention, the family was from california visiting family, im from a stupid town in the middle of nowhere outside of toronto in canada. to see someone from california? not regular. AND MY CHARACTER LIVES IN CALIFORNIA!!!!!! 

they were sitting behind us, the little girl stood on the booth and turned to our table and said "HI!" to my mom, i was really jealous.  i wanted to hug her omg :(