My negative daydream

[Windy City Day Dreamer]

I daydream sometimes that my father died in the 911 attacks and that my brother went off to war in Iraq and died.  I am the main character who has survived this and knows how to truly live life.  Essentially I daydream about being someone who truly lives life to fullest while I  in real life do not live my life to the fullest but daydream my life away.

[taffle]

Sometimes when I experience negative things and I feel weak, I daydream about a young woman who was put through various abuses and trauma. I daydream that she was taken advantage of emotionally, sexually, physically, mentally, etc. But at times when I feel happy and more confident, I daydream about a strong woman who's almost perfect.

I guess what I daydream about depends on my mood.